Thursday, April 19, 2018

Kita tak payahlah belajar hari ini ticer...

Ok... saya iyakan saja... " turn to page 115 ya", saya arahkan...

"Haaahhhh. Ticer kata tak payah belajar", mereka merungut.
"Mana ada belajar, kita sembang-sembang pasal topik Children's Right saja", saya jawab dan minta Zarul bacakan 4 hak asas kanak2 yang ditulis di buku.

Jujur d kids hubungkaitkan dengan persekitaran mereka sambil usik mengusik. Di luar bunyi paluan kompang dan suara juruacara majlis adakalanya memaksa.kami berhenti berbincang.

"Korang suka tengok tv cerita yang macam mana?", kita sembang lagi sebelum hujung2 ticer dia kata ticer suka tengok cerita yang ada lawyer...

"Kami pun suka!" mereka kata... same taste. Kebetulan kat page 118 ada cerita pasal Child Court. Mari...

Kids: tadi ticer janji tak payah belajar... haaaaaa ticer.....
Me: mana ada belajar... kita baca sikit je...

Then they were given a piece of paper to list down...
Kids: tadi ticer janji tak payah belajar... ni kena tulis2 ni apa ni ticer.......
Me: mana ada belajar... kita tulis sikit je...

Obviously text tu menarik dan mereka tak keberatan nak baca teks ke-2. Tekun. S3hingga loceng berbunyi.

Me: masa tamat. Boleh awak tampal dalam buku latihan..
Kids: tadi ticer janji tak payah belajar... ni suruh buka buku tulis bagai. Malaslah ticer..
Me: mana ada belajar... dah siapkan... mbazir kott kalau letak merata.


#missionaccomplished🤣🤣

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

U r wat u eat

Saya puasa sejak semalam. Bweat saya teruk sangat. Nak bergerak pun kurang selesa.

Semalam mak masak hebat2. Ikan masak sambal l, salty fish n pecal. Saya tapau untuk berbuka.

Hari ini mak kata dia sibuk. Jadi sayur kacang buncis dan ayam goreng sahaja. Saya tapau. Itu pun dah cukup hebat pada saya.

Balik #12A saya kutip sayur siam dan letak dalam balang. Pukul 7.14 saya masak nasi goreng yang sedap sebab sayur siam tu memang lejennn...

Minum secawan nescafe caramel latte. Hebattttt...

Lepas tu makanan habis dan saya terus main games. Kalau di #18 lepas solat saya makan. Kalau Arif balik, saya makan lagi sekali. Lepas tu bila tengok dengan Acho, makan lagi...

Bila nak kurus?

Save the best for last😆

Memang pesen orang sekarang eh... bila ada event mesti nak pakai sedondon.

Saya ok je...
Cuma bab menghantar ke tailor tu saya tak ok.

This time, tailor tu sibuk nak uruskan majlis perkahwinan cucunya...


Last night mummy called. Tailor tu sudi nak jahitkan baju.

Mak: bila nak pakai
Me: Jumaat ni

Nampak tak peemainannya?

Dear ...

Pernah tak korang nak cakap terima kasih sebab shyshycat?

D kids giggled...

Here, d cards

1. Kid wrote their own name.
2. Collected n distributed randomly
3. Write a thank you message to d person written on their card.

Then they gave me d cards n I corrected d language errors. Later, I pasted in their exercise book.

I hope they love it:)

Tak percaya.

Ok...
Kawan ada macam2 kan..
Tapi saya sangat suka dengan kawan2 saya dalam kelompok ini. Masing2 humble dan sangat menjaga each other.

Bila dapat cerita yang buruk bulan lepas, saya betul2 patah hati.

We were discussing about something bila isu itu terbuka lagi. I wanted solution for something n one of them kept denying it.

Susahlah macam ni, saya kata...
Kita mesti jujur dan telus supaya nobody can resort to eerr... lying...

Guessed it triggered d news because it was related. Since it was 2nd time I heard, jadi saya agak ok.

"Takkanlah...", d other person bantah..
"Ada bukti kot", tukang buka thread cakap...

The other person kuis2 pinggan, tak nak makan...
Ermmm...

Hormat datang sekali pakej dengan sayang.
Bila jadi macam ini, kesannya sangat mendalam.
Saya fikir, kawan saya itu akan hilang selera untuk tempoh yang lama.

Dulu saya pun.macam tu.
Tapi tak kurusss pun hahahha


Break (dance)🤣🤣

I reached home at 4 on Sunday. Penat? Mahunya tidak...

Kak Jah n Cik Pin datang.
Ya Allah... rindunya..

Cuma Kak Jah sahaja yang masuk, dia nak kasi kad undangan...

Me: siapa lagi kak? Kan semua dah kahwin.
Kj: ini F
Me: bukan dulu... ( dah kahwin?)
Kj: yg dulu tu dah tak... tak ok ..
Me: x paham kita kak..
Kj: yg dulu dah break. Breakdance hahahahha..

Siapa je yg berkahwin nak bercerai berai. I m sure Allah knows d best, saya pun x komen hal ini..

Tapi saya suka cara Kak Jah. Pozitibiti sangat hahahahha..
Itulah satu sifat kak.jah dan Cik Pin yang sangat saya kagumi hahahahhaha.


Ok...x sempat ambik.gambar...

Dulu kami macam adik beradik!

I attended an event. During break, went tp grab some brunch.

"Kak...", someone called out.
Ya Allah seronoknya.

"Nanti kita sembang boleh tak?", saya tanya. Dia angguk dan senyum.

Bila pergi event, bawa nama organisasi, harus saya bersosial dengan orang yang akan saya berurusan pada masa depan. Itupun selepas second serving of vermicelli n Harumi chicken. I was starving!.

Once my task was over, I went to Yus n err... talk. 
"Dulu kami macam adik beradik", dia beritahu kawannya.
Terharu tau...
Dia sebut pasal cerita lama kami bersama ke mana sahaja. Cuma dalam cerita itu ada geng Lindungan Kaabah, jadi hati saya bertambah ernmm... sedih?

We talked about our going-on n all until d meeting commenced. It was so good seeing him. 

"Dah 5 tahun saya pindah kak", he added. Wow... saya mencongak dalam kepala.

Yes. Once upon a time we were very close. Until one day, the betrayal kicked off, six years ago. 

It began with d calling letter never reached me, d decision making I was never included n finally things got bigger. 

I just could not take it anymore when they decided to rent a house n let d girls n boys stayed together, with me being d only caretaker. Yep. Six years ago. Kau sudah gila????

I was so pissed off. 
D Lindungan Kaabah pretended they did nothing wrong.
D team hated us as well.
Great!!

I still vividly remembered after d tournament Yus came to me n he just ask. Of course, I never answer.  A  year later he transferred. 

After 5 years our path crossed again. Like before, we can sit together n swapped banters. We still cared about one another, like we used to. 

Saya kirimkan gambar kepada seseorang yang acah2 ambil berat tag team pulaukan saya masa tu but from time to time will come back to me, acah2 kami masih bff.
I m a new HIM.
Hahahahah

Saya fikir, persahabatan sepatutnya begitulah... berjuta tahun berpisah pun, bila berjumpa, kita terus sambung semula di mana terhenti. Tak ada curiga, tiada ungkit mengungkit. Tiada dendam dan benci.

Cuma adakalanya, kita sengaja mahu tunjuk hebat sampai menganiaya orang. Tag team dan acah2 playing victim pula.
Selepas selesai misi, bagi pula tazkirah pada orang tu suruh berhusnuzon, ingat hari akhirat, ingat syurga dan neraka segala.

Syukur Yus tak buat macam tu. Or else, jangan kata nak bergambo ... nak sebut nama pun saya tak berapa sudi🙄

Monday, April 16, 2018

How many?

Hari ni someone told me about d marks which i wrote in d previous entry. Obviously it caused quite a stir. Ook..

Learnt my lesson.
When d slot for observation was advertised, I quickly grabbed d first slot for few reasons.
A) i hv 2 upcoming events. No time
B) a meeting with sponsor nxt week
C) an official visit from u.p in 2 weeks. Hectic.
D) to set benchmark.

It is another hectic season. Yes. Tapi yang D tu memang sangat tak menahan.

I studied d evaluation form n tried my best to follow d band 4 requirement. I've worked hard, I expect those who gives d mark will at least work equally harder not just punched some random numbers.

We had Hot Seat games where one of d kids played d role of d poets. Members of d floor fired him up with questions n later compiled n shared d answers on d noticeboard.  My role was just a fasci, to help them out where needed.

In my humble opinion, it was fun. D kids had chance to participate n give opinions.

I was not happy when I saw there r many blank spaces on d marksheet.

"Kenapa ye?", I asked.
He praised for my job well done, but trust me, saya dah dipuja puji (I guessed orang lain pun sama) but somehow it did not translate into d end result.

"May I see?", I asked n skimmed through d marksheet.
Too many blank spaces which katanya will be filled in later.

"Beritahulah kelemahan?" saya kata.
Saya pun bukanlah serba sempurna, u show me, i will improve.

No answer.
I was not happy.

Friday, April 13, 2018

Ko dah kenapa lagi???

Today, another blow..

" You switched off ur handphone?" he accused.
"Talipon kita hilang kot!", saya jawab equally annoyed.
" kaya... Xkan x boleh beli talipon baru" He teased.

Not funny.
Kalau saya kaya, d first thing I did is quit my job. Puihhh...

He came all d way only to tell there is an old man wanting to see me.
Intriguing.
Abaikan.

The old man is really a nice soul, kind of warm my heart.

Once he went off I puť on my mask n started dealing for another event. It went well. We skimmed through d paperwork which I had prepared for some adjustment.

I remembered all d nasty things people said about me holding grudges n so forth back then.
They advised me to berlapang dada memaafkan segala. I found it rather silly.
There is a fine line between personal n business.

Despite d bickering we can sit together n discuss. I dont mix business n pleasure either. Where Kids are concerned,  I puť aside my feelings n pretended saya di tepi pantai, walau ombak tak henti menghempas, I meant to stay. Giteww...

"About yesterday.."  he began..
"I wished not to talk about it anymore.." saya jawab..

But he insisted.
He meant well n already think n find solution.
But then, I've endured d Lindungan Kaabah lot for years, and another years of humiliation, discrimination n ostracized is not something I can stand anymore.

D issue raised again when at 5 P.m I passed d message that d appointment is secured.
He was so excited with d prospect of " good for ur appraisal.  AT LEAST THEY KNOW" as he put it.

They who???????

" I dont think so. They already know about my being Ketua Derjah for years ", saya kata dan ketawa.

My appraisal marks were very lousy each year. Of course I made comparison to other. U bet I made a list of their achievements as well.

That is why d concept "rezeki Allah yang bagi" never applies to me. Bila ko buat kerja last minit, cincai, tak buat homework jangan petik nama Allah.

Bila u let d injustice happen, jangan petik kata suruh orang muhasabah diri dan berhusnuzon segala dan slash mark in appraisal for lack of co-operation.
Puihhhhj

Perghhh..
After years, I still could not forget. Awful.

 Dont waste my time talking about it to him or anyone in particular. Tread water....
I just bid goodbye n promised to submit d letter d next day.

Tersinggung separuh mati pun I puť my mask n flashed a smile.

Saya kirimkan teks yang acah2 seperti dulu kepada seseorang yang selama ini acah2 ambil berat pasal saya tapi bila tiba masanya he teamed up with LK lot and stabbed me at d back.
Like before he pretended to care.
Great. I guessed he is busy texting his lots about d latest development. Hopefully they spared me d headaches knowing d latest upper echelon is not in favour of me either.

Nak hidup aman, I imitated d LK too.

"Jumpa esok"  saya cakap dengan acah2 gembira.
Bakat bermain wayang saya makin bagus hahhaha..

When I was in secured place, when no one could see me, I puť my mask down


I cried my eyes out all d way home.
Cried a bucket when writing this entry.
Like yesterday,  I might have sleepless night again.

Kadang2 hidup ni memang kejam kan?

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Kau dah kenapa kottt!??

I came back on Wednesday. D first thing I noticed, upset me a lot.

"Do something", saya kata.
Orang kata saya moody tapi sedar tak mereka penganiayaan mereka sangat melampaui batas. If u could treat people fair n just, semua orang hidup aman bahagia di dunia dan akhirat tau x?

D topgun himself came n instead of apologized he nags about my lack of social etiquette for not pick up his call.
" I lost my phone ' I told him. But he kept on nagging.

Yeah right....
We had bickering
Not good. Ugly. I wont survived jadi Ketua Derjah kalau saya pilih mengumpat instead of iron things up.

It ended.
I promised to do what I could.
He promised to make d end of it
Kita ambik jalan n we parted amicably

"apa masalahnya. Kita jimatkan tenaga" somebody chicken in.
I said something which I guessed made him hurt n caved in.

I did not apologized.
I did not seek apology either.
I will never make them understand my predicament.  I will never open about d bumpy ride I went through.
Why should I?

Listed down for a meet up. Delayed in an event which made me extremely late for d meeting.

I clicked 2 P.m n dashed to a meeting hall which is 50-60km away?
I cried my eyes out on the way.
I felt so bleak

Demotivated, Digest, disappointed, annoyed and hurt.
All d time I keep reminding myself.

You promised to do it for d Kids Norizan Adnan.
Prove it...

Kau dah kenapa?????

Like Farah in d previous entry,  I wish I could say that.
I wish...
But somehow, I wonder siapa yang lebih sentap?

Ok...
ThIs week did not started well.
I got message last Friday dat r day I chose is.a.public holiday. Duh...
Finding New date n New location made me dizzy.

At d same time I could see d same person is playing a dangerous game. I cant afford any drama, so I washed my hands n walked off. Still, it drained me emotionally.

People thought I had a smooth sailing ride, duh...

On Monday morning some read about a text message, saying someone will see n evaluate me on action.

Thanks,  saya cakap 5 minit selepas. Sorry tadi terkejut l terus speechless, saya beritahu.

" ye ke? Nampak relaks je", yang lain tegur.
Puiiiiiih...
Nampaknya bakat main wayang saya semakin bagus.

D observation went well... Well, I wished I could do better.  I targetted full marks.
"Yang lain semua markah penuh, dua ni saja 3/4", he replied.

D fact I targetted FULL MARKS ok...

It made me spinning. By noon I could not take it anymore. Stopped at d clinic n asked for d next day mc with tears eyes.

" tak boleh" She answered.
" Tapi besok saya takut x boleh bangun" saya jawab.
" Takper, kita save utk u" dia jawab..

True enough. D next.day saya bengkok.
Puihhh...

Friday, April 06, 2018

Unexpected

Semua orang tak suka diperintah. Termasuklah d kids. Tapi bukan hari2 teacher dia ada masa nak bergurau2...

Minggu ni free, jadi boleh la suruh d kids pilih aktiviti yang mereka nak buat masa belajar. To be honest, I predicted they will choose short test. Hahhaha..

Kita layan...
Sebenarnya, d kids is like an open book. Belum buka mulut lagi saya dah boleh agak nak.cakap apa...

But not this one ahhahah..

During d activity I asked Iqram to join a group because he sat alone. It made Farah so cranky. Habis semua orang dimarahnya.

Very unlike her.
She is quiet n soft spoken.
Tokojut ticer dia tau..

"Izzati buat betul, kau je yang salah. Kau dah kenapa?" she snapped at twin. Terkebil2 twin. Teacher pun terkebil jugak..

"Ticer, Farah marah saya", Iqram mengadu.
"Yang kau buang sampah eraser kat meja aku tu dah kenapa?", dia tanya garang... I didnt see d eraser tu pun. Saya ketawa, "kemain garang Farah hari ni", saya usik.

Dia tersenyum. Baik budak Farah ni sebenarnya. Lepas tu dia snapped lagi bila Adik nak minta dawai kokot. Lepas tu ada yang suruh dia stapler, mestilah dia marah, yang tu saya setuju. Buatlah sendiri.

"Tolong stapler jap", Syuk datang dan hulurkan test paper dia. Farah senyum dan stapler.

" oooo dengan Syuk awak tak marah pulak??? Awak dah kenapa???" giliran saya pula snapped. Farah tersenyum simpul. Tiada jawapan.

"Ticer ni malu dia... kitaorang jiran la ticer, takkan dia tak tolong kroni", Syuk jawab sambil ketawa.

"Jiran sebelum rumah ke Farah?", saya tanya. Dia mengangguk sambil tersenyum.

"Stapler siapa tadi. Woi pinjam", Aiman tiba2 bersuara dari group belakang.

"Nak pinjam sinilah. Kau dah kenapa?", Farah snapped semula.

Korang boleh agak tak siapa yang ketawa berguling. Hahahahaha

Tuesday, April 03, 2018

Derang fikir markah prestasi ni perkara menmain ke?

We were asked to print out n send a copy to upper echelon. 

Walaupun hubungan saya dan TheOtherFriend bagai eskrem di tengah hari, tapi saya terus menelefonnya, bertanya jika dia perlukan bantuan saya untuk mencetak. Ala2 kasih sayang tak bertepi sangat gitewww..

Untuk rekod saya offer diri untuk membantu orang lain juga. So that I will know others' marks. Hahahaah...

Rupanya ada cara yang lebih mudah. Tanya je markah derang berapa. Mereka jawab dengan hati yang terbuka hahahhaha..

Bila dah tau markah masing2, mulalah mereka buat comparison. Kalau deserved, siapa pun tidak peduli tapi jika tidak hati tertanya2. Kenapa?

"Pergi sajalah tanya kepada upper echelon", saya nasihatkan. Perkara profesional selesaikan saja dengan profesional. Mudah.

But not for me.

Saya tidak akan pergi bertanya walaupun saya fikir markah saya sangat rendah.

Tahun 2016, pemberian markah dibuat sewaktu saya bermesyuarat untuk Ketua Derjah selama 5 hari di Kuala Lumpur. Bila pulang esoknya saya pula menjadi Ketua Derjah dan mengetuai Mesyuarat selama 3 hari.

Apa saja markah yang diberi, saya terima sebab saya memang tidak mengisi borang yang diminta sewaktu saya di luar kawasan. My fault.... Kerja separuh mati, nak bermimpi pun tak sempat, inikan pula isi borang.
Tidak mungkin.

Tahun 2017, saya pastikan borang diisi pada hari yang diminta. Saya orang pertama yang menghantar sebab 2,3 hari selepas itu saya bertugas di luar kawasan. Belajar daripada pengalaman.

Tengah kita separuh mati bertugas itu, upper echelon kirimkan pesanan minta saya hantar borang yang lain pula. Pada hari itu juga. Saya beritahu, tidak mungkin sebab tugasan saya itu jauhhhhh lebih penting dan tak boleh diganggu.

Dia kirimkan pesanan dan mengingatkan saya supaya utamakan TUGAS saya dulu.

What TUGAS?
jadi saya kirimkan pesanan supaya pada lain masa dia lebih cekap menjalankan tugas, melakukan homework, mematuhi masa dan jangan membuang masa orang dengan arahan yang bertindih.
Instead of sending d new form to private message, I sent to group with d same notes. 

Bila markah keluar, jauh lebih rendah daripada usaha yang saya berikan dan sama level dengan orang yang kurang berusaha, saya tidak fikir satu tindakan yang bijak untuk bertanya, bab mana yang markah saya rendah sangat tu...

Kalau daripada awal dia sudah tidak profesional, instead of admitting his weakness in doing his job efficiently, saya tidak fikir kali ini dia boleh menerima soalan dan pertanyaan secara profesional.

Seperti yang selalu saya tulis, tiada apapun yang ingin saya kejar dalam hidup ini. Harta, nama dan pangkat bukan keutamaan.

"Be professional!", saya ingatkan kepada pengadu.

"Tahu tak, masa tahun 2015, markah X tu 90++ n I got below 90", dia tanya. No wayyyy...

Si X sangat sangat kurang berusaha. Judging from d students' result, dia memang sangat kureng, in other field bila dia pegang posts, rest assured memang malfunction. Bukan saya yang cakap, tapi facts n figures never lie. 
Kenapa saya baru tau.
Sebab selama ini saya fikir saya sorang je yang dibuli hahaha

Abaikan...

She sat next to me in d meeting when d boss praised me for something I did. Besides, he urged others to emulate me.

Saya buat muka tiada perasaan. Ini bukan kali pertama saya dipuji di depan khalayak. Bukan kali pertama saya jadi benchmark. Tapi markah prestasi cikai juga.. what is d point? haahahha

Bila buat tugasan kerjasama dengan pihak universiti, hasil kerja saya juga dipilih jadi benchmark. Mereka berita upper echelon suruh beri saya Anugerah, hahaha jangan kata Anugerah, markah prestasi pun cikai nak mampss.. hahahah

Buat tugasan kerjasama dengan Jabatan Kerajaan lain, d officer-in-charge came to my workplace, singing my praise. They mentioned to my upper echelon what I did is coming to be d State benchmark.
BENCHMARK pun dapat markah prestasi cikai. Mampu???
Hahahhahaha...

Nampak sangat tukang bagi markah appraisal tu pencapaian level international. Tak daya norizan adnan nak bersaing tu yang dapat markah sama level dengan yang kurang berusaha. Hahahaha.

Abaikan.

Once d meeting ended, a subordinate came to show her progress. Ye saya pun Ketua Derjah untuk khalayak yang lebih besar berbanding orang yang kasi markah cikai pada saya tu.

 Ada nada mazmumah di situ🤣🤣
Unlike him, I tried to give credit where credit dues.

The boss called again, to inform that I did a well done job with something. As he put it, it helped alot n he already submit it for District evaluation. 
 Saya mengangguk dan mahu katakan tak guna juga pujian bertanam tebu penghias zahir sebab markah prestasi sangat buruk. 🤣🤣🤣

Syukur mulut saya tersebut benda yang lain, "mungkin boss patut belanja makan", saya cakap dan menyesal. Setakat nak makan free, saya boleh pergi ke masjid malam Jemahat. Heh..

Saya tepuk orang di sebelah, acah2 bergurau nak ajak beliau makan bersama. Tapi hambar.
Senyum dan ketawa never reached d eyes. Guessed d appraisal really affected us. It cuts deep.

Derang ingat markah prestasi ni perkara main2 ke?


Duduk di tepi😍

Saya tak faham kenapa orang yang tak kenal saya suka melantik saya sebagai Ketua Darjah. I had a hell of time, walaupun depan orang saya acah2 ada-aku-kesah-kind-of.

Kali ini bila Acik Munir kata there's a calling letter for me, I was on 7th heaven. Initially it was somebody else's task n she asked me if I got d letter. I assumed she did not want to burden me and will take over my place, but I was adamant to attend the meeting.

In fact I  looked forward for it.
The meeting was yesterday.

I called Kak Mizan up n we carpooled. All d way we talked no-stop. Heaven!.

Once arrived, I met Kak Prema n Kak Malathi. 5 years ago we worked closely together. After I quit we never meet. It has been 3 years since. Hugs n kisses is a must😗

I went out to Musalla.
A HIM made me almost dizzy...

"I missed u soo much", saya cakap. The truth I was worried sick about him. He came with Shree. I missed Shree too😗.

Jijie n I went to musalla together. I was about to choose a telekung when Kak Ainul tegur... ooooo missed you so much kak😙😙
Kak Ainul is Ketua Derjah hehe..

Back to d meeting room, I worked with people who I used to work with in d past. Turned table. Now I have to follow them n it felt so divine!
Menjadi Ketua kepada mereka yang seploh kali lebih hebat daripada saya memang bukan pengalaman yang indah... seteresss mokcik tau...

Semua ke best?
Nope. Ada juga orang yang saya kurang suka.
To be honest seorang saja.
Reason being I caught her gossiping about me behind my back. Not funny okeh. Twice. Different events. Different audiences.

Kalau pasal kerja, saya ok.
She was talking about my personal life. Saya tiada keperluan merahsiakan apa-apa tentang kehidupan peribadi saya. But I did not talk about my personal life to colleagues either. I kept a fine line between  private n professional.

She crossed it. Twice.
On the first account I told her off, " Not Funny Kakak".
She did not get it n d when d second incident occured, I never waste my energy. Now that our path crossed again, korang fikir saya ada masa untuk sakit kepala? I greeted her n avoided her for d rest of d day.
End of the story😉

Ok fine.
N d officer-in-charge cracked jokes. OhEmGee..
Last time, bila berjumpa muka dia berkerut macam mangga muda. Atau mungkin juga itu cerminan muka saya.
"Lama tak jumpa", dia tegur. I dont remember we exchanged pleasantries in d pass 

Oh lupa. I had something for Mr Shahrul too, d officer I worked closely with now. It was raining so d only person I knew was d officer-in-charge. Saya kirim padanya n he was like... hahahaha
I forgot d words, but knowing how serious he was previously, it made me laughed out loud.

Today, I woke up feeling refresh n energetic. Meeting besties really had cool effect on moi.
Atau yang betulnya bila duduk di tepi, it makes me d happiest person in d room.

Ermmm...