Saturday, November 18, 2017

Dik... ko basuh kaki sebelum masuk rumah!

Kalau umur saya 100 tahun pun I m still her little sister.
Selamba je dia marah2 saya... padahal tu rumah saya kot...

Saya langsung tak kecik hati.
Musim hujan kain tak kering. Selalu saya iron sebelum simpan dalam.lemari.
Tapi bulan ni banyak show. Saya tak sempat..

"Astafirullah dik!", kakak saya terjerit. Izzati (anak sulung dia) dan suaminya pergi bawa semua baju itu ke dobi.

"Mak Andak malu kot nak pergi dobi Long. Anak murid bersepah kat situ", saya beritahu. Jujur.

Sementara mereka ke dobi, kakak saya mengemas rumah dan mengemop lantai. Padahal baru 2,3 minggu lepas dia diisytiharkan betul2 fit.

Saya kerja balik lewat. Weekend saya outstation. Celah mana saya nak buat kerja rumah?

Hari ini selepas family day, saya tidak kemana-mana. Capai keri dan mula merumput di belakang rumah. Perghh... rumput sudah panjang.
Saya tak percaya sebarang orang datang potong rumput.

Sementara menunggu Meen atau my brothers free, saya potong sikit2.

Baru sekejap. Hujan pun turun.
Aiskkkkk . Potong....

At least kalau kakak saya balik, dia tau adiknya ini memsng ada effort.. hahahah
Cuma itulah....



NUTP Family Day

Registration dah tutup. I called n asked if I could come. I dont expect dilayan. Saya yang salah sebab lambat buka surat.

2 pax. No more. He said.
I asked Yati Saad but she was not free. So, I took Uda along.

Uda fetched me at 7.40a.m. 
We were early. We tried out d fitness station. Fun!

Brekkie was choc bun n milo. Followed by 30 mins zumba. Ngehhhh....Bapakla penat...

Then we were given Nasi Lemak. Both of us could not eat so I gave ours to pakciks cleaner. 

After that telematch. The games were tiring n we lost. Anyway I had so much fun though playing with familiar faces. It was lead by Cikgu Abang Mail n d helpers were sch reps.

Later we walked to TR TomYam for lunch. Rice, Kurma Chicken, Dalca, Jelatah, papadom n fruits.
Sambal takder, tekanan mokcik rasa. Yang lain ok..

Meanwhile, LUCKY DRAW!. All my tablemate won!
Saya tak bertuah. Redha.

At 12.15 d Minister came. D speeches commenced. Normally I like listening to the speeches tapi kali ni I was extremely fatigue n my eyelid just refused to co-operate. 

But then, there r two things that caught my interest. 
Muallim is declared as Youth City n Education City.
In order to build a Youth City, there will b housing n transit development. 
"Buat rumah pun tak der siapa nak beli kalau belia tiada pekerjaan", d Minister said. Saya celikkan mata dan pasang telinga.
Da#n. He must have talk about d plan before that, nyesal pulak saya terlelap...

As for Education City, there is a plan to build a plant of ... nayy... maybe I should google about it. Daya penaakulan saya sangat lemah bila penat.

We went home at 1.30p.m.
Normally sebelum balik I will thank everyone. Tapi kali ni memang serius terpeleot punya.

To be honest, d activities n d crowd were very entertaining. I really I had splendid time! Kudos to d team. 
Cuma itulah... mokcik sleepy😴

Uda took me home. She did not want to stop by as she put it, "nanti lama..."..

Yeah rite...
Jadi kitaorang bersembang dalam kereta for about 10 minutes. Hahahah

Once home, I took shower n fell asleep.

Did I tell you I woke up at 3.## last night?
Alasan:)

Friday, November 17, 2017

I don't deserve these clown.

#nangess

#1
Registered bulan 6. Saya tanya boleh tumpang tak? Dia angguk. Saya offer registerkan anak buah dia. Dia bagi 7 nama. Ok 7+dia, dah penuh satu kereta. Saya nak duduk celah mana?
Point taken.

2 minggu sebelum event saya tanya lagi, budak2 nak pergi dan stay di mana. Dia tak jawab. Acah-acah bizi. 6 Hari sebelum hari kejadian saya tanya the kids, may I let go the confirmation slip in case they did not join in.

2 days before the event he sent a girl, "He ASKED YOU to take me and N". Saya geleng kepala.
Tinggi betul darjatnya sampai kena hantar wakil hahahhaha...

Agak-agaklah bang..
Event started at 6.50a.m. Mustahil nak bertolak dari rumah. Perjalanan 3 jam kot. Bawa d kids yang berlainan jantina, kena sewa 2 bilik. Celah mana duit nak dikorek?????
besides, this is such a big event.  Sangat mustahil to get a decent room at the eleventh hour. 
Main petik-petik. puihhh
Tinggi betul budi bahasa kau dekkk...

His reason was because he had a game on Saturday. 
Heheheh mokcik senyum sinis jah...
Macamlah games tu baru 2 hari orang rancang. Kenapa tak boleh dibawa berbincang?
Kalau tak ak berbincang, dah kenapa nak petik-petik nama orang pulak?

Sebab kau maksum? Buat apapun pahala melimpah ruah? Gitu?
hahahahhha

 Sudah-sudahlah tu main wayang.
Mokcik tunggu juga kalau dia kata sorry ke hapa ke.
Harammmmm kata orang Perak.
ahhahahahah...

Lupa... orang maksum tak perlu minta maaf.
Hahahhaha.



#2
Just finished my brekkie when someone told me about a recent awful incidents. Dejavu more of.
In 2014, the same person tampered mark. Kali ini pun sama.

It costs me years of humiliation because I was d Ketua Derjah, of course I reported the breach of conduct back then. It was very awful, and I was all alone. 
To be honest, I really do not mind, I had done my job well.  Yang lain I couldn't care less!

Early this year, the Kaki Kencing n that particular someone had a conflict of interest. Sesi ungkit mengungkit pun keluar.
"Bila you kena marah dalam meeting pasal Kaki Kencing tu saya rasa macam nak cakap sahaja. Bukan setakat itu, banyak lagi yang Kaki Kencing tampered" dia kata.
yeah rite? Where were you when I was attacked by the Lindungan Kaabah back then? saya bertanya dalam hati?

Dia beritahu lagi data yang diubahsuai. Saya tak minat nak ambik tau. Tread water.

Sama macam hari ini, dia beritahu. Saya dengar, masuk telinga kanan, keluar telinga kiri.
I m not a Ketua Darjah anymore. It was hearsay. No proof, kejadah apa saya nak ambik port?

Itu kerja dia.
In 2014, dia pilih untuk berdiam diri dan menyorokkan fakta. Saya pilih untuk memberhentikan ketidakadilan. Tahun 2015 Kaki Kencing tak berani menipu.

2016&2017  saya bukan lagi pelakon dalam filem itu. Saya penonton.
The power is in your hand. 
Mokcik cuci tangan sambil makan popcorn  sajalah.


Dengan geng Lindungan Kaabah ni payah nak kira. Mereka konfem maksum. Tiket syurga dah printscreen siap2. Kalau kita bagi proof their misconduct kita tetap dilabel penjarah. Malass....

Yang pemegang evidences, proof loud n clear  pun, sah2 kunci mulut dengan alasan, "dah janji tak nak heboh". Baguslah..
tak baik kita gaduh-gaduh ye tak...
Gasaklah d kids teraniaya pun. Kesah apa kalau sampai bila pun keputusan tidak valid. Integrity of d result is questionable, who cares????
But who cares.
As long as kita ni nampak 'baik' di mata manusia.


Nanti dihujung kehidupan ada pengiraan yang lebih adil.
Kita kira di sana sudah..

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Sorok-sorok:)

Orang kata tempat yang paling sunyi ialah sewaktu berada di atas. Macam pelik.
Here is d English equivalent, d loneliest place in the world is when u r on the top.


From my experience, I couldnt agree more. Sakitnya tu di sini πŸ’”

Today I was having brekkie when people talked about potluck.

"Dont. Let us do it when d new broom is not around", suggested someone. In my humble opinion, it is very unbecoming of her to say that. Her of all people!.

"Syhhh.. he's coming. Jangan cakap lagi". Dia kata. Penuh berkonspirasi.

Saya benci orang bermuka-muka.

Jadi saya bangun. Took a bowl n scoop the laksa. Yeah... second serving. Mokcik terpaksa.

"Can we do potluck?", saya tanya dengan muka askar to d new broom. He smiled n teased. But I maintained my coolness.

"Just once", saya kata, for others to hear. A friend pujuk sikit, but not me. Tak pernah dibuat saya nak manja2 hahhaha...

Entah kenapa, kot mintak sesuatu gigih saya spiking. Hahahah

He did not answer. Dat particular friend sambung memujuk. Saya terus duduk,makan  hahahahh...

"Hari Khamis ye...", d new broom cakap sewaktu saya sedang tunggu giliran bayar makanan.

Oh... gila saya terkejut.

"Saya boss, tapi saya kena tanya big boss juga", he signalled to d man in front of him. Ooookk..

"Kena cakap dengan ahli tingkap ni..." tu merujuk kepada geng yang mula2 bercadang nak buat sorok2 tu.

Saya perhatikan wajah seseorang betul2. She was not happy.

So dats it.
Menjadi Ketua bukan mudah. Ada banyak yang kena difikir sebab semua keputusan ada amanah yang mesti dilunaskan.

Adakalanya Ketua dijadikan kambing hitam oleh individu yang berkepentingan untuk mencari pengaruh. They defy the leaders  so that they will seen as hero, d leader is the villain.

I've been through this many times. I can smell rats even before they can open their mouth.
Menangis di bucu katil was never easy, I dont wish it to anyone.

Tu yang saya beria pagi ni...

The new broom will see me as pushy. I will be labelled as kaki bodek by d ladies gasakla sebenarnya saya cakap dengan muka askar pun...
As for me, well... I dont even have time for cooking. Gilerr..

I left d canteena with creased head. Tekanan...
Only now, I realised...

Eh... saya lupa bayar kot...
#damn




Kasih sayang untuk dirasa:)

Pukul 10 mlm, a gud fren called, kasi tau dia tengok movie sedih.

"Bercucuran air mata ai yu...", dia kata. Iols gelak2... I almost dozed off. Tapi kot org call malam-malam buta only to tell me dia tengok filem sedih, ya.... saya harus berkorban.

Mendengar.
Akhirnya saya pun menangis sekali.

Dia kata dia rindukan abangnya. Emaknya meninggal sewaktu beliau kecil, jadi abangnya lah yang menjaganya, memanjakan dan mengajarnya tentang hidup. Bila abangnya meninggal dunia, dia rasa sangat keseorangan..

"I missed him so much", dia cakap. Menangis.

Tetiba saya juga rindu pada my late dad. Saya rindu bercerita dan mengadu padanya tentang semua perkara. Saya rindu gurau senda ayah saya. Sangat.

Sedar2 kami berbual selama 4 jam.
Menangis bersama.
Kalau tahajud ada juga pekdahnya:(

Hari ini saya bangun pukul 5.30 pagi dan errr... terkebil2.
Sakitnya ye merindui orang yang tiada.

Saya pejamkan mata.
Sedar-sedar dah pukul 6.45a.m.

Melompat saya turun katil, mandi, solat dan memecut ke tempat kerja.

7.36a.m. d#mn!
I was supposed to swap duty with Yuni because next week I will b out for year-end-task.

"Sorry. Lambat", saya cakap muka moyok.
"Takper. Next week pun biar saya duty juga." Yuni kata. Erm...

Saya menelefon rakan menangis. Kalau2 dia pun terlewat juga. Dia tak pick up.

Lima minit kemudian dia menelefon  semula. Moodnya sudah ok. Kurang ceria, tapi ok.

As for me, Cik Tie dan Cik Odah menegur, "tak sihat ke? Nampak macam tak sihat sahaja".

Saya tak jawab.
Physically saya ok.
Emotionally I m not.

Al-fatihah



Tuesday, November 14, 2017

Of being pushy part 2

Ngeeeh

I know people are waiting. Tik tok..
But I would never call people asking for result on Monday. In fact, I hate it so much if people asking my result, opinion ke hapa2 on Monday.
Monday blues kekdahnya...


Today at 10.27, d sponsor texted, boleh tak postpone since d big shot is not around until next Monday.
Two optional dates were given.
Rule #1, jangan sesekali kau memandai.
Jadi saya berlari ke bilik new broom.

He was busy.
"May I have a minute?" saya tanya, dia tak pelawa pun duduk.
 Jadi saya cakap laju-laju.

Date 1: NOPE
Date 2: Kalau Puan tiada siapa yang akan gantikan?

Saya bagi 2 nama.
No 1: Busy with major exam.
No 2: She's ok.

He smiled.  He shrugged off. "Beritahu kekangan masa ye"
Diplomatik giler.

Lagi sekali saya berlari. Ini berita gembira.
Yang tak gembira, bila saya beritahu d kids, mereka tarik muka.
Hmmmm..

At 2.++p.m.bro texted. Dia sudikan gantikan my place.
First, mestilah called d sponsor, ok ke kalau tak jadi kensel?
Dia jerit gembira..
Yippeee!!!!!!

At 2.50p.m. I called d new broom. He is n d meeting room.

Me: It is ok, I will wait for u 
Him: Takper, cakaplah sekarang.
Me:Boleh on semula sebab ada pengganti?
Him: Boleh, kalau dia sanggup.

ahhahahhaha..
People said he is so pushy.
That is because they never 'deal' with me 


hhahahahah
In my humble opinion, u need to be pushy where d kids r concerned.
Semoga urusan ini dipermudahkan...

Last year, d  sponsors were singing my praise. One of them told the boss to give me ANY ANUGERAH because of all d participants, ours was d only one yang berjalan.
Our proposal was used as benchmark as well.
He said it in front of other upper echelons.

Korang ingat saya dapat ANUGERAH?
Cekelat sebijik pun tak dapat hahahhaah...
Takder masa saya nak sentap tak nak buat program lagi ke hapa..

As I always write in my blog, takder apa pun yang saya nak kejar dalam hidup ini.
Nama, pangkat, duit dan kesenangan dunia takkan boleh saya bawa ke alam lagi satu.
As long as the kids will benefited from this programme, I could not ask for more. 

That's why saya boleh relaks je main paksa2 the broom. 
If you do not like me, feel free to find a replacement  kekdahnyaa...

This is me.
Take it. Or. Leave it.

Of being pushy part 1

Ngehh...

Do you like somebody pushy?
I don't.
Come on... Neither d u. Jangan wayang ye...

But somehow nak senang hidup I have too. I could see d new broom was really irritating.

"Waaa..." he said.
"I just want to preserve my good name", saya jawab. Takder wayang. Tak kuasa.

Dua  hari memaksa, on the second day I handed the proposal.
Prepared by me and d big shot name on d approval column.
Saya fikir he was impressed.

"Duit ni datang dari mana?" he asked.
"Jangan fikir. Itu kerja mereka. Cukup tak?", saya tanya kembali.
"Saya tengok banyak sangat ni, ada ke duitnya?" beliau bertanya semula.
""Mereka kena usahakan" saya jawab mudah.

Sebab itu saya bertahan dengan tugasan ini. Saya cuma buat tugasan saya saja. Hal lain saya tak sudi fikir. Tayar  kereta pancit pun saya nangis bila nak kena ganti, inikan nak keluar duit untuk hal macam ni. Celah mana saya nak korek?

"If you say YES, kita proceed", saya cakap macam hari2 saya dapat duit ribu riban.
Padahal....

Selesai submit, saya buat tak tau saja. Beberapa hari kemudian, saya minta balik awal.

Saya pergi dengan harapan yang setipis kain chiffon.
He is so strict unntil people said they do not want to pick up the phone.. hahahaha

"Saya dah register since June kot, mana nak tahu weekend ni kena kerja pula", saya cakap, muka askar. Saya dah pasti tak akan dapat keluar.
Redha. Sobssss.
I showed him d confirmation slip.

Him: Di mana?
Me: Kuala Kangsar
Him: Bila?
Me: Esok, tapi hari ini last ambik race kit.
Him: oooo pergilah... jalan baik2 je..

Nampak...
Errr...
Dushhh... satu penganiayaan kepada kewarasan saya.

Saya cuba buat muka cool. Ala-ala....
So what????

Tapi saya masuk toilet dan terus kunci pintu
*chicken dance* ahahahah

Sunday, November 05, 2017

Like?

Masa sekolah saya nak buat law... dah lama terkubur.

Tetiba hari ini... 
Datang kembali

Friday, November 03, 2017

Kayla

Unplanned.
Acho was not free, so I volunteered myself. Once arrived, Nik had already prepared dinner.

Gigih!
Considering dia baru je boleh berjalan tanpa tongkat after accident.
She was helped by Along, yang tengah study week tu.. hmm..

Kayla n I gigih ambik gambo.
She looks like Saffi.

I went back at 4. To avoid traffic jam.
Kelat muka Kayla:)

Ilman

On my way home I called Anjang, asking for Iman's number. Called him up n 30 minutes later I was there.

As usual muka Iman serius je. Saya fikir macam budak lelaki seusianya, dia acah2 cool bila dengan makandak.


"Do u need anything Iman?", saya tanya.
"Tak ada apa. Esok Ibu datang, Iman ingat nak minta ibu beli biskut", nampak tak... He never ask anything. 

Mak Andak insisted. We went to Tesco Extra. He bought stationeries n Luxor n Oreo biscuits. I asked him to try Calpis drinks "Izzudin suka tau, cuba Iman try juga". He took grapes flavour though. 

We ate. 
"Ikut MakAndaklah nak makan kat mana" was all his reply. I gave him option between d two fast food joints there. He chose KFC. 

Surprisingly he chose d cheapest in d menu. We ate together n I gave half of my portion to him too. He left half of d cheezy wedges for me, without saying any words. 

Ya. Greedy is one of d kid's attributes. Alhamdulillah, Iman despite muka-askar is well-brought. Might be it is part of his life as a cyclist team too. Beggar cant b chooser. Whatever it is MakAndak really respect his politeness. 

It has been a tradition makandak will visit them before UPSR an PT3. Just so they know I really want them to get the best result. 

I never visit Izzati, Adeeba, Luqman n Nadiah before SPM. They stayed at the faraway boarding school. Most of d time, I was struggling with my year-end task too.

Guess, Iman did not expect to see me either. 

"Iman ingat nak minta makandak datang Ahad ini", Iman beritahu sewaktu Mak Andak sedang tuisyenkan dia. 

It is one of d reasons why I found time for him. I m so worried he can't do well. 

I left d school at 6.50p.m. It was almost dark, nak tuisyen apa lagi kan...

"Iman kena ingat u hv to do well because u r d eldest." makandak bisik. 

"Ok", dia jawab sepatah. Itu pun dah cukup convincing. 

Flowery hati makandak.
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Khai Bahar

It started off when I have to compile songs for Sarong Party.
BBNU betul mokcik rasa...

That aside, saya fikir lagu2 Khai Bahar sangat soothing dan menyentuh hati.

"Suara dia sedap macam Hazami" Shahid kata. I couldnt agree more. L

Here is one of my favourites. Saya letak lirik. If u guys can sing much better than him give me a call.. hahahah

Luluh
Sudah Puas aku menangis lagi
Kau Hadirkan mendung awan yang kelam
Namun Ku kan tetap bisa betahan
Secebis Kasih yang telah kau beri
Kan Ku simpan dalam memori indah
Tapi Semuanya telah berakhir
Aku Tersungkur menunduk meraung
Dan Tiada siapa bisa merasakan
Oh Sakitnya hati ini
Jika Kau tak mampu memberiku senyum
Usah Kau hadirkan dengan kedukaan
Oh Biarlah hidupku dengan caraku

Secebis Kasih yang telah kau beri
Kan Ku simpan dalam memori indah
Tapi Semuanya telah berakhir
Aku Tersungkur menunduk meraung
Dan Tiada siapa bisa merasakan
Oh Sakitnya hati ini
Jika Kau tak mampu memberiku senyum
Usah Kau hadirkan dengan kedukaan
Oh Biarlah hidupku dengan caraku
Sedia Menghadapi yang akan tiba
Takkan Berundur walau seketika
Aku Terus berjalan mencari sinar baru

Thursday, November 02, 2017

A vacation u never forget

Semalam saya dan Yeith spot soalan dan brainstorming ideas.
Pilih kasih?
Nope.
She is a potential student, harus saya melayannya mengikut kebolehan.

We found d question.
Brainstorming was never easy.

Something memorable la Yeith, mokcik mendesak. Yeith blank.
Jadi saya bagi satu cerita.

Hujung2 saya tunjukkan gambar saya dan lelaki itu.

Hahahaha ..
"Brp umurnya teacher?. Teacher betul2 kenal?" dia tanya macam makcik2...

Saya mengangguk sambil ketawa.
"Buruk sangat?"saya tanya semula.

"Taklah... macam pelakon la " dia cakap.

I remembered dulu Jie kata dia berlakon filem, tapi saya tak percaya. Bertahun kemudian barulah saya terhegeh2 cari filem tu. Jie x tipu.

Yang ini tak pernah kata pun dia berlakon filem ke hapa.

Heh?

Tidur tak lena

Next week d exam starts off.
Perghh....

Semalam buat pertama kalinya saya bertegas.
"Talk to my hand?" ayat tanya untuk d kids.

"Nak ajar macam mana lagi?" I asked another.
Kasar. Garang. Kejam.

40 minit kemudian saya pusing dan semak latihan mereka.

Most did a wonderful job. Selalu mereka bersembang, semalam fokus.

Ironically I started teaching on d year they were born.
"I can smell talent when I see ones", saya beritahu mereka.

Saya harap mereka percaya.

Once d class finished I saw Afiq.
"Nak tak kita revised essy?" saya tanya, gasakla tu waktu rehat pun.

D recess was spent in d classroom with him. Later, several kids came n we discussed some more.

Nak exam, bukan d kids sahaja yang cuak.
I woke up at 3 a.m.
Until now mata tak mahu terpejam.


Mokcik is stress kata ko.