Too much work, too little time.
Thanx to the exam analysis system wic is so efficient and user-friendly, kot x... aduss lagi la tension. Thanx to farhana for making it the way it is.
I cannot say, time fly coz I m `great looking forwad' for the year end holiday. No specific reason. I just wanna have a quiet holiday, just me, book and sea. Huh?
Since I was small I love the idea of living by the seaside. Afterall most of the Enid Blyton's books misti ada seaside. Yep, I read all her books when I was in school. It makes me longing for school near the seaside even more.
Tapi sampai habis sekolah, jangan kata nak ada laut, swimming pool pun xder kat sekolah. isyyy!
When the time comes to enter uni, my first choice misti yang dekat laut. Thanx god, from my school, the sea view is breathtaking. Mintak maap, bukan sy sorang jer excited, my coursemates pun 2x5 jugak.hehhehe.. Auk betul masa first time naik top floor nak masuk kuliah.
On 2nd year, despite many of my gang moved to umah yang dekat2 ngan campus. I chose to rent a room di Gelugor, even I dont even know any of the housemate. The decision wic make frens confused, "nanti nak g kelas naik apa?".
Main reason, from the room, one's can see Penang Bridge clearly. Partly, Long Beach is just within walking distance. Sangat menarik. I used to wandering with Wa and Len, sometimes with Izan and Yam and bila xder sapa nak teman, I just went there alone. Life was less complicated then.
Tapi ye la kan... when coming back after graduating , rasa macam, alamak! But at that time I always knew, after five years I will apply for transfer to any coastal area. On my fourth year service, I've listed down districts, then schools. I even searched high and low for info, wic school most likely lack teachers with my option.
And last year, I submitt my transfer application form.
The life of me, I used to get my first choice. It's either first choice or x dapat langsung. When i granted the 2nd choice masa tu rasa mcm perghh!!! apsal plak nih.. Sedeyy.. but there's still coastal area. And Baby did help because she said she knows how much I wanted the place.
I was super sedeyy when given felda settlement area. Cant they see I've spent almost my entire life in Felda? Cant they figure out why this person apply for transfer? Of course they cant, but Baby had called then beforehand. Len taxied me to school, and later to Kuantan for sorting this out. Jie came down from Subang, for moral support sambil kasi nesihat, "lain kali tulis satu jer Dungun. Kalau dia nak kasi, kasi x nak sudah". Jie's friend lent me his office (they left me in the office and dashed off to Kemaman Kopitiam), sbb the Kuantan officer asked us to write an official letter.
To no avail.
My immediate boss suh jangan pergi. The super boss pun ckp x payah la kalau sama jer ngan my current workplace. A few bestfrens, x kasi pegi and siap gelak2kan lagi. My family, whom were very supportive (yahoo nanti kita ble g lawat andak sambil piknik tepi pantai) asked me not to go too.
No offence to the place, but its not what I expected.
Thats when I decided to x nak pergi. And comes another problem. I have no workplace. Dan we had extra manpower too, wic means, I wasnt welcomed. Thru this zaman darurat my super boss and immediate boss helped me a lot. Susah rupanya. Since xder black and white they cant assigned me to teach, except gantikan an ustazah whom on maternity leave.
They (the 2 bosses) advised me to write letter to pihak2 yang berkenaan. I did. No reply. The bosses advised me to go to the main office myself. I did.
To my dismay, the officer told me, "kami memang x kan balas surat". Huyooo.. Thats not all, I was asked kenapa nak pindah? ada gaduh dengan keluargaker? frust ke? ada kes kat sekolah ker? And the big boss siap cakap, cakap betul2, kami boleh tolong.
Apakejadahnya soalan. When i told them the truth (ustaz kata kalau tipu masuk neraka, terima kasih) siap lagi kena marah, kerja jangan nak kira tepi pantai ke apa yer. Mcm tu plak...tadi kata boleh tolong...
I m sure she knows what she talked about. But what she dont know is (in case she too busy sampai seploh kali talipon pun x angkat), the place that I want to go pun x cukup manpower la... Besides, my recent workplace dah lebih orang. Oh yer.. teringin betul saya nak kasi tau dia saya memang xder sejarah bergaduh sampai pindah2 nih...I was taught, fight for your right, and say sorry if u are in wrong side. Tu cikgu saya ajar masa kat Uni dulu. Terima kasih.
Nevertheless, I hold my tongue. Little Napoleon is everywhere, that's what everyone said, including Pak Lah. Afterall her big boss was my ex boss.
Once, during Kursus Pegawai Baru in year 2000(tu kot nama kursusnya), the then pengarah, Encik Zainuddin advised us, "Jadi cikgu yang rajin. Orang akan ingat. Sampai sekarang saya ingat lagi cikgu-cikgu saya yang rajin dan baik. Ada yang malas tu, kalau jumpa sekarang pun saya tau, itu jer la ghopenyer. Mmg pemaleh"
I couldnt agree more. Pegangla jawatan setinggi langit pun..errr... Whatever.
Camna pun I m grateful coz a week later I got the confirmation x yah pindah. While I m forever indebted to my 2 bosses, I m also grateful sbb knowing wic frens who had stayed with me tru thick and thin. Ada sorang tu siap lagi buat gossip kata saya nak pindah sebab nak duk dekat ngan boyfren yg keje kat negeri tu. Konpius.. konpius.. Waaa x tau plak saya yang cantik ni ada boyfren. Hebat tu... teringin gak nak kenal, sapa lelaki yang tabah sanggup bergirlfren kan saya tu...Uikkk
And I discovered that the person I despised selama ni, actually have the heart of gold.
My another ex boss, passed a message tru someone, "tell her, kalau betul2 nak pindah, do come to my school. I'll arrange it." Rasanya saya bukanla sensitif sangat, after got the message, saya masuk bilik dan menangis. Partly sebab terharu, mainly sebab nyesal ari tu dlm meeting saya menjawab2 cakap. Oh sungguh kurang sopan.
Gitu la ceritanya... Tapi I didnt accept his offer, for obvious reason, there is no seaside there. Period. I know people will say, apa ke peliknya dia nih... Katala apa pun, but I believe, everyone is free to dream. And my dream is to live by the seaside. Even I have to wait another 30 years, lepas pencen. X kisahla...
As the saying goes, misti ada hikmah disebalik semua ni. One thing for sure, as Kak Kama sum it up long time ago, "bila kita x dapat apa yang kita minta dari Allah, misti ada dosa kita yang belum terampun".
Iskk... waktu tulis ni pun mcm dah tambah saham lagi... better stop now... tapi saya xkan putus harap. Mungkin rezekinya di luar negeri. Adios!
p/s : mcm keluar tajuk la plak...