The life of me, I couldnt fathom how can ppl have no respect for others? We are allowed to express our anger but until what extend?
People who grow up with me or anyone around me while I m growing up will give u lengthy explanation how kepala hangin I was.. (pls note the past tense).
I never proud of it.
The turning point was when one day I was so pissed of a clerk in my office. I mean, I don mind ppl buat apapun, tp kalau salah say sorry je la wic is better than salahkan org tu org ni and in the end i found out mmg he was the culprit. I found out when I contacted our society. I lost my temper. I yelled to him.
I had class after that but too shaken to speak. I was trembling when I entered the class. The kids were quiet. I was scared that I'll put it on the kids. . Took me half an hour kot to cool down. I stayed in the class, shaken with anger. Cried? No.. just wasnt my type.
But then and there I knew, being a kepala hangin sgt x sesuai betul dengan kerjaya saya.
It was some 6 years ago, I was young, just graduated and full of hopes not to mention ambitious.
The fact that the boss at the time was very... iskkk kalau-ckp-dah-kira-ngumpat-plak ... didnt help too. I wrote to the society with copies to departments. Pas tu he sort of repeat what the clerk told me. A year later I heard from colleague in the other dept, there was a circular asking bosses to look after their subordinate well being especially anything regarding their salary. The same thing that I complained.
I never see the circular, but the boss was promoted later. That was another story.
From then on, I tried to control my anger. Instead of marah2 i prefer send letter of complains.
Bila talipon kena potong, mak saya marah saya (hari2 lak tu) sy tulis surat kat telekom tanya apsal lak kena potong padahal I swore x penah bayar lewat. Saya fotostat smer slip bayaran dan bil2. Bila dapat balasan saya lekat kat peti ais berbulan2 biar mak baca tiap2 hari.
Bila saya kena marah ngan doktor, sbb refused to come the next day to take medicine ( coz hospital tu 4 jam perjalanan, sy g naik motor je) afterall alasan dia sbb boss dia xder nak sign sbb ubat tu A list. Sy diam jer. Hehehhe tp yg betulnyer nurses tu (konfem sy mmg x kenal diorang masa tu) siap2 sokong saya sbb tu sy x yah ckp apa2, guess diorang pun org miskin mcm sy gak. I am forever indebted to them. That was why bila thn lepas hari2 kuar berita komplen spital kerajaan, I wrote to Utusan dan ckp ramai lagi staff hospital yg betul2 komited mcm kat Hospital yg sy pegi tu. Artikel tu kuar suratkhabar esoknya, n the next routine check up, one of them ckp kat kenkwn dia, ni la yg tulis hari tu, "lain kali jgn tulis hospital tulis Klinik X, baru org nampak sket".
Tapi ye la kan... dalam cuba bersabar2 tu ada gak yg terlepas... kira dah habis sabar la tu..
Mcm td tu rasa mcm nak bakar jer one of my colleague nih. Heklehhh takat pegang jwtn `tu' x yah la nk rasa diri tu besar sgt, bila org buat silap siap treat org tu mcm apa ntah.. rs baguss sgt kot. Lupa diri plak...
But that was all, rasa nak bakar, tp x jugak bakar2.
That is why bila ada big shot ble bom his gfren/wife dia I was like... Waaaa hebatnyer mamat nih. Siap dia suh polis lagi suh buat dirty job... MasyaAllah lagi grand.
Tapi nak tanya gak, beli bom tu duit dia ke amik gomen punya? polis tu buat keje time dia duty ke r time off. Pistol yg dia guna utk tembak tu pistol sendirik ke hak kerajaan.
Bukan apa, saya pun bayar cukai gak.
Tapi tu la kan... burden of proof still kat polis jugak. Tapinya jugak ini high-profile case. Tapinya dlm sejarah ada brp byk high-profile case yg libatkan big shot terkantoi. I don hv the statistic. But I m sure, suratkhabar akan keluarkan nanti2 (harap2la)
Meanwhile, apalak berita murtad tu? Hv to sleep early 2nite need to catch up warta pagi at PerakFM 2morrow..