How am I supposed to live without you?

Situation : Fews years ago. Heading to eatery place, talking about everything under the sun.

Me : I m just curious, what if one day you hate me?
Kawan saya : No, never.
Me : What if one day you dont want to talk to me anymore.
kawan saya : What? no way...
Me : Everything changes you know...
Kawan saya : tak kan...
Me : Kalau la... let's say u hate me, one day...
Kawan saya : No way... i will never do that..
Me : All my life, there's only you and her... and she hates me now.
Kawan saya : noo dont cry..
Me : Know what... what have i done wrong...
Kawan saya : maybe its me. She doesnt like me kot..
Me : I dunno, she said she likes u..
Kawan saya : Maybe its me n u together she doesnt like.
Me : if one day u hate me, and refused to talk to me r see me anymore,
would u please tell me d reason why.. so that i wont go to my
grave with nagging questions.
Kawan saya : Dont, takkan berlaku... jangan cakap lagi. x mungkin... it will
never happen to us.
Me : It juz that... I m so scared i dont hv fren to go eating anymore..
Kawan saya : U will always have me... always..

oooo manisnya janji...

yesterday i texted kawan saya, a lunch invite. no answer till 2day. hate to call him up. so i juz let it be...

i ended up eating 3 diff dishes, no elaboration tho.

if one day i'll hate somebody close to me, i will definitely tell them why, so that they dont have to carry nagging questions to their grave...

but so far it would never happen, i will love each n every one of them deeply no matter what happen...

except jerk..