Bukan pura-pura

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"wah .. YANG?" asked someone, when she heard me talking to a kid. some ppl, in my humble opinion, are best left to ignore mode. she's one of them.

it didnt spoil my day, if thats what u think. but something else yes.

the kids were busy doing revision, the exam is starting and they didnt have paper on that day. i didnt teach them this yr but i knew all their names by heart. maybe i shud add i knew them well too.

helped one girl doing her task (wic involved tawaf 3 buildings). something annoyed me so much. no, not the girl but the other girl who sat next to her bf and they seems oblivious to their surroundings. that is very very understatement. i took full 3 mins and count 1-100 and recite doa pjg dlm hati b4 come up to decision to talk to her.

"tlg i kira ni yang, bwk kalkulator ye" actually x benda pun yg nak dikira krn the girl yg supposed to do it still kat dpn sy n dia dah siapkan pun.

"yang mana ce, biar sy tlg" dia datang n macam dulu2 still sgt sopan santun n penuh kasih sayang bila cakap..

"no.. i pura2 je, i nk ckp lain.." sy betul2 serba salah, kalau dia melwn2 sonok sket sy nak marah2.

"cakapla ce, x apa"... dia masih mcm dulu..

"i mntk maaf, tp bercinta x sepatutnya mcm tu...." saya cakap. ada dua tiga ayat lg tp sy malu nk tulis.. dia diam n tunduk.. sy rasa sangat mcm x sesuai.

"i pun malu nk ckp bnda ni, i pun x baik sgt yang, i pun byk dosa jugak" wktu sy ckp ayat ni, sy rs sgt sebak, saya merasakan diri sy spt ketam yg mengiring jalannya.

"x apa ce, terima kasih tegur saya, terima kasih ambil berat pasal saya, saya tau salah, saya akan perbaiki" dia cakap laju... tidak ada tanda2 dia nak melawan..

frankly few years ago, whenever i talked to troublesome girls i owez told them these

"kita boleh pilih nak jadi mcm siapa bila besar nanti. nak jd mcm ur mom, mcm ustazah, mcm artis, mcm siapa2la. kat sekolah pun sama, nak jadi mcm kakak X yg happening dan selalu tukar-tukar boyfriend n lepas sekolah terus kawen, nak jadi macam kakak Y yang pendiam n pemalu, nak jadi macam kakak Z yang selalu jadi tpt org mengadu tu ke. Hidup ni kita yang pilih. Kalau saya jadi sebaya awak semula, saya akan pilih nak jadi macam kakak C. dia pandai, dia sopan santun, dia aktif, dia pandai ambil hati yang penting dia x gedik. Semua orang hormat pada dia. Saya tak tipu, kalau awak tak percaya, awak tengoklah sendiri, tapi jangan beritahu dia saya puji dia ye"

dia lah kakak C yang saya maksudkan.

"jgn kecik ati ye. i love u C, eternally" saya cakap dengan sangat jujur.


With these sweet n well behave kids, orang gila je yang boleh berpura2.