Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Kita tak pernah lupa mak...

Its Aug 30th again...

Since last Friday, Aishah n Baby had re-pack the dates in tiny containers. To be distribute to all d kids in my class.

Nani and Ina carry the big rattan basket around. Thanx.

The kids were euphoric, most did not turned up, so Nani and Ina had to stretch their territory a bit.

"dont forget pakcik guard ok, they r my best frens" i told them.

"ok... kami pastikan semua kawan2 baik teacher akan dapat", replied Nani..

I giggled, n later when i was alone... i cried... i missed u even more dad...al-fatihah

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Hikmah Ramadhan



Jie, I wish i could be you. You r everything i m not, patient,gud pr, funny n likeable.

i texted Jie, to which he replied, "tell me wat had happened"

I did. At that time, rasa tak mau kering air mata.

This is his advice, "After all said n done, buat je mcm biasa. Dont waste ur time thinking abt it anymore. Juz do ur job very very well. Btw i x paham kenapa u sedih sangat".

Looking back.. I dun understand either. As the Arab Proverb goes..You may forget with whom you laughed, but you will never forget with whom you wept. Yeah how could i forget? It happened on the first day of Ramadhan.

On something very related, i like this Arab Proverb very much.
Your friend will swallow your mistakes, your enemy will present them on a plate.

"Akak kena hati-hati sangat lepas ni tau" said undislosed friend who bold a few names on a piece of paper.

I couldnt agree more. As d saying goes. Once bitten twice shy.

I think that's life. Oprah Winfrey is right, "stay away from negative ppl who main focus is wanted to see u down".

Good bye.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Perlukah kacak?


Currently i am addicted to a certain internet games. No, not farmville... apa la korang nih... besides enhanced my creative thinking (ntah apa kena mengenanya) i like it so much coz while playing we could have a chat with our partner, albeit we do not know him or her.

Of all the games partner, there is one man that i like talking to, even tho he beat me in all 3 matches.

He said he is working on a novel, gave me an outlined, it sounds interesting. He described the hero and that was when my curiosity grew.

Me: Kenapa hero kena hensem? Perlukah?
Him: Sbb pembaca wanita tidak akan baca kalau heronya x kacak n unmenawan. apala lu

Banyak benda saya nak cakap. But then, dalam banyak2 benda yang orang cakap pada saya pada masa lalu, one thing that etched in my heart is, "u ni kalau melawan dapat gred A++". (I hate u man!!!)

So I didnt say anything, until he asked me something else

Him: Hobi cik ini apa ya?
Me : Saya sangat suka membaca
Him: Buku apa yang cik sedang baca sekarang?
Me : The Last Man Standing, David Baldacci, hero dia x hensem pun.
Him: Saya ada lihat buku itu di perpustakaan, tapi belum baca lagi.
Me : (saya menahan diri dari menjawab dan fokus pada games)
Him: Tapi itu buku thriller. Nanti kalau saya sudah famous dan buku sudah laris barulah boleh buat buku yg heronya hodoh, pasti orang akan beli juga.

Saya tidak melawan. Saya sangat sukakan dia dan berharap novelnya akan berjaya.

But then i keep thinking, perlu ke kacak?

p/s anak2 murid saya nampak kacak di mata saya sebab saya sayangkan mereka as d Russian proverb goes, "we dont love ppl because they r beautifulPeople look beautiful to us because we love them"

Monday, August 23, 2010

Pokok kucai




Saw it in Yati's house last year. Tot it was flower plant.. I juz loove white flowers. Looks so errr white... dont u think so?

"eh pokok kucailah.. boleh makan apa." said Yati. "nak ambil biji ni pegi tanam" offered her

Never eat the kucai tho... yesterday my mom came, i picked the ripen flowers. Hopefully it will bloom at #18 too..

Thanx Yati, for d wonderfull gift. Love it!!

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Doa awal pagi ini (sila klik)

Cause i love u, whether it's wrong r right ,
and though i cant be with u tonight,
u know my heart is by ur side

(daniel beddingfield)

Friday, August 20, 2010

Love 101


You know you are in love when

1. Berdebar-debar
Menyebut namanya pun berdebar2, tengok gambar berdebar-debar, melintasinya tempat tinggalnya pun berdebar, (padahal belum tentu dia ada kat situ pun)

2. Namanya sentiasa dibibir.
Sikit2 sebut, patah ketiga sebut lagi... sampai pening la org mendengar.

3. Menjaga penampilan
Ntah? tetiba... dulu x kisah serabai2 pun, nowadays bersiap punyala lama... letih..

4. Ada hobi baru.
Ini hobi yang xder kena mengena dengan past tense. Tiba2 muncul dan x berapa masuk akal pun ada.

5. Mudah sensitif
Tolonglah... padahal dulu gurau sampai bergolek atas lantai pun boleh, nowadays komplen sikit pun menangis macam lapan belas tahun kena dera.

6. Selalu mengelamun.
Need i say more?


7. Mood swing..
Kejap2 bersemangat, pas tu dah macam ayam berak kapur, pastu macam askar nak g berperang pulak... adeiii..


8. Gembira melampau2...
Orang buat lawak sikit je... pas tu dia gelak berguling2. Reason? sbb dia x kosentret pun pada lawak tu tapi tingat kat yang lain.

9. Belajar benda baru yang x masuk akal sangat.
I went to Tamil class 10 yrs ago... (no elaboration tho), ppl i know beli gitar n berhasrat nak belajar main gitar (tapi last2 dah 15 thn gitar tu x berusik pun)


10. Membeli belah barangan kecil yang entah hapa2..
If guys start beli brooch (ehem ehem), a lady beli majalah golf padahal pegang kayu golf pun x penah seumur hidup (ok majalah Golf kat umah saya tu Jie yg kasi, sbb ada article pasal dia, sy x beli ye)... beli earrings, bla bla...


11. Menangis @ sengih2 mendengar lagu.
Ha'a yer.. dengar lagu Negaraku pun ble nangis gak kot.


entahla Labu...

Monday, August 16, 2010

Is the race important?

The pain became severe. I went home from work a wee bit early today, coz i couldn't stand it anymore. After swallowed another pain killer, like yesterday i forced myself to sleep... to no avail.

I waited until 3 hours, when the pain still did not subsided I went to a private clinic.There r two private clinics nearby, one is owned by my neighbour the other is a chinese lady.

I did not know the vast parking lot near the block had turned into Ramadhan Bazaar. It was 4.30p.m. so the bazaar was in full swing, resulted I had to circle the block twice before could find a space to park my kereta-cap-ayam.Actually I double park n asked the pakcik in bright yellow t'shirt to look for my car because i really x-tahan-anymore.

The clinic wall is painted in bright colours, two receptionist, a chinese and an indian greeted me cordially..

The lady: Doctor x ada, pukul 7 baru dia masuk semula
Me : Tp sangat x tahan..
The lady: nak ubat apa yer, kalau perlu sangat...
Me : Kalau nak jap ada x org buat kan?
The lady: Yang itu kena doktor yang buat. Kita x tahu. Pergila klinik lagi satu..
Me : Tak mau.. nak jumpa doktor perempuan jugak..
The lady: Tapi doktor yg sana tu Islam...

Islam? Muslim?
Huh?
Seriously, when i choose eatery outlet, i go for muslim food, when looking for accommodation, either it is a muslim ownerships r not i prefer somewhere i confidence I could perform pray and when shopping for certain things i look up for halal label.

Seeing the doctor is dif. Maybe if it juz for runny nose, sore throat, flu r fever, i dont mind what gender the doctor is. But then when in involved something so embarrassing and required me to selak-selak (use ur imagination k) so if i could choose i want a woman to treat me, please...

race and religion is not an issue at all. afterall we r 1Malaysia.

Then, I drove to he hospital, n was treated by an Indian male doctor. Because in public hospital u could not be choosy. Thanx god all the selak-selak thingy was done by a nurse, aminnn...

I was given a medical leave for tomorrow. Hopefully ini la last saya sakit...

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Good Ol' Days

Ever since blessed with good health after opt, i kinda forget how it felt to be down with cramps, until this morning. Woke up at ungodly hours and tried my best to put in positive ideas (like pain is only in the mind kind of thing).

Sunday is meant for spring cleaning but the cramps juz wont subsides. Until I couldnt take it anymore, few times crawled to bathroom and vomitting is enough. swallowed a ponstan and 2 tablets of mmt and forced myself to sleep.

After sleeping on and of for hours, felt much better. Lingered on my bed.



since yesterday i was reading a danieele Steele book, IMPOSSible. In time like this, there's only one book that could lift up my spirit, First Among Equals.

I dawned to me I havent touched the book in 3 years, unlike before i read it 12 times yearly.

Curled on my bed I did, and indulged in the dreams of four new MP at Westminter. Over three decades they share the turbulent passions of the race for power with their wives and families, men and women caught up in a dramatic game for the highest stakes of all. But only one man can gain the ultimate prize - the office of Prime Minister.

Huh?

p/s tu buku kedua yg saya beli, yang pertama cover dia warna biru tapi sebab asyik baca je kot, dah bercerai2 isi perutnya dan saya beli yang lagi satu.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Dalam susah dan senang

One day a fren was miserable. The only thing i did was standing beside him, and listened. Juz that... When he finished talking i gave him sweets, i dunno why i did that.

Months later, due to something technical which i dont know how to handle, i had a tearful moments. He brought banana fritters and said, "makan ye".

Years later, i was weeping uncontrollable. Normally i would call Jie, but i lost my handphone, n i bumped into him, he listened and advised me. The day after, he waited at the place i frequented to, he never been there before, n looked at me.

gave him a thumbs up sign. he nodded and signalled thumbs up too, then left the place. it means, juz like before the incidents would never be discussed again. period.


Whenever we crossed our path (jarang sangatla), i muttered thanx, juz like he did years ago. Just a simple "thanx", no explanation, no crappy rubbish talk.

Some ppl like talking and detailing incidents over and over again. Once it over I preferred to forget it and never talk about it again.


But i would never forget the names tho..

Because u r not that important

The power of internet (the search engines to be exact), you'll learn peoples' news faster than before...

like who's seeing who, who's suing who, who's befrended who, who's going where, that kind of thing you would see in the facebook. no, that not important, at least to me it wasn't.

Yesterday night spend some considerable time googling the web. and found a piece of intriguing news.

via text message.
me : wah a big big boss now eh?
him: hahahha mana tau?
me : uyooo since when? (seriously we met few times in d last 3 months,tp x ckp pun)
him: lama dah, mana tau?
me : i stay dpn laptop dr td. read something awful abt ur buddy la.
him: what is that?
me : remember when i complained abt ur frens u marah n said they r ur best buds.. guess this time misti u lagi marah..
him: we r best buds, alway lepak n golfing ngan kawan2.Apa cternya?
me : sum1 wrote a blog entirely degrading her. pls warned her, this is awful.
him: add? i'll check 2mrow.

So that's it. internet not only enable u to know whats going on in ur friend's life, but also ur friend friend's life. Somehow, our friend's friend would also googled about us (we r the no1 google users in d world), so i would appreciate if no one devoted her or his life blogging sleazy site on me. Or maybe started the I HATE NORIZAN BINTI ADNAN SITE in facebook. (buang karan)

btw, reminded me, someone arrogantly told me,"u'll always find me even kat ceruk mana pun i duduk".

yeah rite... after many2 years, i dont even have a clue kat mana pun dia. never give a damn too. juz face it, u r not that important to me..

juz like i wonder why my this particular friend didnt tell me abt the promotion.. maybe i m not that important to him also.

Newayy... not that i care

Friday, August 13, 2010

Untuk kenangan

There were 25 kids in enrolled in this classroom in January. By April, errr few were MIA. And today, the exam week, since they dont have paper today only 10 turned up. None of the 5 girls coming.

"x mo belajar ari ni" said Muhammad firmly.
"ok" i replied shortly
"g library?" suggest one.
"cant, it closed for upgrading works, but we can take bakul nilam upstairs" i suggested.
"do wan la ticer"all of them answered simultaneously.
"astro?" asked another.
"no entry. upgrading as well" they sighed.

i took d broom and swept the floor. it was total mess.
"x payahla, napa ticer yg sapu?" asked Naim.
"nanti mak awak nampak dia nangis tgk anak dia belajar dlm tong sampah" i keep on sweeping the floor.

Shuk was singing a nasyid song, "pergi x kembali". touche

"did u pray for him boys?" i asked them?
the stop talking. look at one another. and couldnt hide the surprise.

"Marah la Shuk, dia nyanyi lagu mcm tu, i teringat pada arwah Farhan.Agaknya dia tunggu2 doa dan sedekah dari kita. Kita sama2 sedekah ye" Sorila saya sedikit emo.

Farhan was their classmates. He met a fatal accident early this year. Few days before we promised to take a class pic, but ari2 i forgot to bring digicam. Until he gone.

The boys refused nak ambik gambo ni. Bayan was down the hill n he stayed on his table. I forced the rest to join me. I think they look cute.




Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Frugal Ramadhan

My workplace is a huge place. Anyway, the handphone stays on my table. Ppl always complaining that I didnt pick up the phone. I am. Thats why an APPOINTMENT is founded by the old Mr Webster.

Today i took the handphone where ever i go. Reason being, I have an appointment with a trusted supplier. The salesperson couldnt make it, so he sent the representative instead. Never met this rep, and so anxious that he couldnt managed to find me.

Took d phone to d classroom. the ladies, the musalla, the store, the gate (while waiting for d newspaper distributors) and while distributing the newspapers myself.

This is insane. I should buy a LV slingbag.

Oppss.. yeah right...

On something unrelated, I dont remember when it started off, but i finally stopped associating Ramadhan with iftar yummy food.

Since last week I told mom, I wanna breakfasting at 12A daily. My mom dont mind and she forced me to have a WHOLE bird for ration.

Me: What for mak? For who?
Mom: Senang nak nanti x payah beli dah?
Me : Org mmg x nak makan sgt la mak... beli utk rumah kita la mak..
Mom: Eh jangan dah ada dua ekor ni cukup la...

For d record, of all her 12 children, i m her top choice in going shopping with. We loved stock up d fridge, for a week ration n then go shopping again. But it is an open secret, i dont go out in d daytime during ramadhan, except to work.

Itu pun I'll make sure i minimised the contact with the sun. It was an ugly experience. you dont wanna know. Thats why my mom wanted me to stock up my fridge.

But then, I have promised myself for a frugal Ramadhan this year. A less sweet date (a gift from Cu Na who performed her umrah recently) a pot of ginger lime tea, a glass of lime yogurt bliss and a plate of soup is more than enough.

Tak sedihker? asked a close.

No I dont, I talked to my mom everyday, have an outing and frequented once a week, ate with my bro on his day off, have a chat with Acho n Uda at 8.00p.m almost every night. Once a month i drove to Shah Alam and had makan2 with my Along or Baby. Once a month one of the siblings will come home and we had a makan2, or we visited them and had makan2 too. Every school holiday my anak2 sedara will stay at 12A, and we had a blast.

Therefore, Ramadhan is the only time of d year that I solely fill up my day and night with remembering the Creator. Not that on the other time I dont remember HIM, it juz that, when the stomach is empty, the distraction is becoming less.

I love leading a frugal life, for a change.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Change of heart

Supposedly, i could sense it from the very beginning, but i couldn't.

I cried bitterly, but it was too late. At least I thought it was too late. Until I read d Holy Quran translation, words by words (yeah... bila dah susah baru nak ingat Allah, pada muka ko norizan adnan)

This morning I met these 2 guys.

En X: So how?
Me : Like that la, how else?
En X: Kesiannya akak...
Me : X kesian lah... Selama ni susah sgt nk buat kebajikan, maybe kali ni Allah lorongkan.Peluang dpn mata.
En X: Xkan sampai mcm tu?
Me : Rasanya ya... Dahla.. ko ni banyak soal eh?

Memangla, there's so many questions will remain unanswered. Tapi bila saya nak menghitung kebajikan yg pernah saya buat pun, mcm x der jawapan jugak...

Orang kata, ujian Allah datang dalam pelbagai bentuk dan masa. Saya paling takut kalau ujian tu datang dalam bentuk kemewahan dan kesenangan. Konfem saya kantoi punya.

Justeru, saya sangat sangat bersyukur dengan dugaan yang ditempuhi kali ini. Apalah sangat dengan harta dunia, nanti sudahnya hanya kain putih 8 meter sahaja yg dibawa ke sana.

Selamat berpuasa kepada semua, halalkan makan dan minum saya selama ini dan ampunkan segala salah silap. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini ialah Ramadhan yang terbaik pernah kita tempuhi. Aminn

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Arif dan Uda


Arif is the youngest. When he was small everyone kinda pampered him, now at 26,he looves memanja2kan dirinya. Like...
1. "Andak, susahkan ko x kalau hantarkan kipas ke umah org"
2. "Orang mcm nak beli buku ler,ko free x besok?"
3. "Depa kata tomyam kat restoran xyxy tu meletup2, mlm besok kita try nak?"
4. "Orang dah ambik cuti, ko konfemkan nak pergi jaga nik kat spital, org ikut ye"
Begitula caranya, walaupun ayat panjang2 tapi biasanya jawab jwb satu je, ok.



Ini Uda saya... jaaaaaaaarang je saya cakap ngan dia. Dahla satu tempat kerja... letihla, xder apa nak sembang dah unless ada hal2 yg panas, barula kitaorang cakap x renti sampai my mom suh stop sbb dia libang libu.(read: annoyed).

Sampai ada bzbody yang tanya, "Ijan x mesra ye ngan Uda"... saya pun jawabla x sangat.. Malas saya nak hampakan orang saya jawabje apa yg dia nak dengar.

this pic was taken early this year. I accompanied (read: tumpang)registered for her new sem subjects and at the same time get her previous years result. One is hers the other is her friend's who was holidaying in Jakarta at that time. (cett norizan adnan je yg holiday kat 12A org lain smer g obersea).

Back 2 d story... Uda dapat straight A's (elehh A- pun ada). Sy cakap apalah sangat.. tapi saya ambik gak gmbo, told her buat kenangan di hari tua... padahal dapat A- apa la sangat...

"Ishhh ko tau x so far smer uda dapat A tau" Uda cakap ngan ntah... mcm bersungguh nak kasi saya yakin..

"Elehhh A pun ada jugak A-, apalah sangat" saya menjawab ngan muka budak nakal, malas saya nak puji.

So I insisted to snap d pix,"orang saja je nak sukakan hati ko la Uda" saya cakap ngan muka seposen.

In d pix nampak muka Uda x puas hati, n me... lubang idung dah macam serombong kapal. Ppl said a picture tells thousands stories, thats y i never showed this pix to Uda.

Something to ponder...

I was giving d kids a teeny-beeny task, wic ikut logik akal, they could do in a breeze. But it turned out a stormy affair. No elaboration tho.

Then, another kid, came to me and asking to borrow some money. All teachers were happier to part with their money if it could make the kids succeed in their study (i.e belanja makan, kasi adiah, belikan buku, xerox worksheets, belikan stoking, belikan stationery bla bla)

I almost fell off d chair when she said she wanted to "tebus" her ring at pawn shop. I'm 15(bukan umur sebenar) and i do not know the pawn shop exist in out sleepy town. but i gave the money anyway and make her put it in writing the date she wanted to return my money.

It's not much, x abis pun gaji saya sebulan but i really wanted her to learn money managing skills. Afterall, she came from a well off family. No offense to the parents tho.



Know what, there's something my colleague Mr Hashim said the other day that make me thinking very hard.

You see (u dont la kan..) A bunch of boys were scanning an article in mainstream newpaper. A few boys from my workplace make headline for notorious act. It was horrible but no names were mentioned.

It's an open secret, so the boys told us who was d culprit, Mr Hashim also there.

"What? x mungkin. Si X ni ayah dia mmg jenis jaga anak, tapi kalau Y tu saya percaya. Mak dan ayah dia bukan tak tau anak perangai x bagus tapi sejak kecil biakan je. Tanyalah sikit macam mana anak tu boleh ada duit.. heee parents mcm mana tu?" Saya marah2 dan sedikit emo because as d saying goes seekor kerbau membawa lumpur semua akan terpalit.

"Janganlah cakap macam itu. Kalau budak-budak ni salah, janganlah babitkan ibu bapa. Saya pun ada anak,kita dah ajar mereka yang terbaik, tapi di luar kita x tau macam mana perangai mereka, cikgu yg tau tolong la bagi tahu n nasihatkan" Cikgu Hashim kata dengan berhemah..

"Alamak maaf cikgu" Saya pun rasa macam malu sendiri. Mungkin sbb itu Allah x kasi saya anak.

Saya sangat kesal dengan kata-kata saya. Saya sangat kesal menuduh ibu bapa tak tahu menjaga anak mereka.

Selamat Hari Minggu kepada semua ibu-bapa yang anak-anaknya pernah smenjadi anak murid saya. Terima kerana pinjamkan anak tuan puan yang baik dan comel kepada saya, mudah betul kerja saya. Kalau anak-anak tuan dan puan nakal, saya pun ada SAHAM sekali. Maafkanlah saya, Saya berjanji akan menjadi cikgu yang lebih baik.

Monday, August 02, 2010

Sale Season



My-cap-ayam-wallet is in its final stage. Kot ikut ramalan takat seminggu dua je leh bertahan.I bought it on our movie trip with anak2 sedara on.... errrr Upin n Ipin Adventure... Cess... very long time ago.

My initial plan was to board train from Slim River, but then, since Baby is in Kuching, so I have to fetch Along in S.Alam first. She waited at the junction opposite the Hindu temple which was a stone throw from mosque (very 1Malaysia ok!!) n we had lunch in Section 18(lapar x ble tahan). Naik tren from Shah Alam to Bank Negara Station.

We planned to window shop first but it was hot and humid n lots of ppl thronged So*0. We jumped d bandwagon, what else. It was crazy ok... we ended up buying things we wanted, the things we dont really need, and the things we could live without but bought it coz it was on discounted prize. Sale juz irresistable.

No... i didnt buy the wallet tho. After bertungkus lumus, bersesak-sesak we had tea on d 6th, Assam Laksa n Crispy Popiah. Then we went home. Thanx god getting a seat in the train was a breeze.

Met Yus, Rina and their chubby son Dan, at PKNS Complex and later we proceed to Metrojaya Sale in Stadium. Bought nothing coz (xper ker tulis?)i think with the same brand and quality i could get better bargain somewhere else..

Met Jie on my way home. Me having trouble in my career lately, so i need his expertise in solving the problems. He finished his job at 9.15p.m coz starting Aug 2, there will be major tournament.

As usual, he always have time for an old fren. We bid gud bye at exactly at 9.23p.m.. (I checked the dashboard many times because it's 2 hours journey home la).

The drizzling slowed me down, i reached home at about 11 p.m. shut the window pane, checked msg in facebook, solat and fall asleep. While shopping is a good theraphy, nothing beat the company of wonderful flesh and blood a good advice from old friends.

isnt life is wonderful?

p/s tetiba saya teringatkan seorang kawan yang asyik2 dia cakap Bz Bz Bz... if u r too bz for a friend, means u r not worthy to be a friend. period