saya duduk di asrama sejak form one sampailah habis sekolah.
Saya tak taula apa anggapan diorang pada saya, but I think, I never belong to any clique. Dont think I need one.
If my help is needed, I m more than willing to lend a helping hand, when they dont, saya angkat kaki saja la..
If people tried to be clever, hehe ... suffice to say, I am quite well-experienced in managing clever people.
Then come this
So this is d recount.
Untuk kenang-kenangan di hari tua.
On d first few days, dalam kesentapan, I tried to keep a distance.
Giving space to one another kekdahnya..
As much as I appreciated d whatsapp funny videos messages, I just dunno what to reply. A mere tq, is more than enough.
no more sharing anecdotes whatsoever. Tak perlu!
at least I never forgot to say thanks. Hehe
Tapi, if it was work related, saya still bercakap, menegur seperti biasa.
Whenever I took anything, I will take for my friends too (u r included).
I m still everyone's friend. Always.
No need to remind me, "jangan tak nak kawan pulak". Hahahhaha
Tapi ada orang tu, cepat2 ambil barang2 dia when I sat on d faded pinkish sofa.
"Biarlah.. kita sekejap saya", saya cakap. Dia x jawab. Saya tanya, dia jawab dengan signal.
Angguk. Geleng. Senyum.
bukan saya ke yang patut merajuk?
How could I not? People r talking about my lack of ability behind my back to YOU.
As a friend, I expected you to tell me where I am lacking, so I can improve it.
N u of all people never think that it is a friend's duty to protect me.
Even we r not blood related, tapi dlm islam, kan lelaki yg kena lindungi pompuan.
ke dah lain sekarang?
Instead, you dropped other name. D culprit.
dont u think saya dah tau dari mula? Dont u think it was loud n clear?
dont u think budak tadika pun tau siapa.
Dont u think that I always prepared for my time to come?
since before things turned sour, he did that to others,
and he told me about it then.
only he was using your name.
I don't want names,
I just need some assurance that friends will be loyal to me, through thick n thin.
if u said u want to remain friends.
Please be one.
Saya cakap dalam hati. Hahhahha..
Takkan la saya nak mushy tak tentu pasal pulak..
Afterall u r not going to wipe my tears pun.. heh?
Tapi yang sampai tak mo cakap ni hahahhahaha..
Kekanak ribena sungguh...
Ramai yang cenggini.. Dia yang mulakan, pastu sentap sendiri n bawak cerita sana-sini dah tu berharap dipujuk, harap orang merayu mintak mahap ke apa kekdahnya?
masa saya duduk kat asrama bertahun2 tu pun saya x ambik port, ni kan dah tua2 ni...
Hhahahah hilang akal ke hapa?
I have enuff drama in my life, jadi sejak dulu saya memang tak layan sinetron.
I guess it is d fact that I missed all funny stories shared that make us bonded. Hahhaahaha.
I missed d laugh, d amusing anecdotes n someone to answer all my silly questions.
So, five days later, things kind of back to normal.
macam kat asrama bila dah ok, bolehla sembang2 masa prep, tiru homework n g dewan makan sama2. Haha
Diorangla... saya x pernah pilih bulu, homework sapa2 pun saya x kisah tiru haha..
Even, when I re-read dis posting, rasa macam terasa ribena sangat..
but still, since this is d kind of thing we would never discuss in real life,
but still, i want to let it out of my system.
Why d helleberry u said, jangan tak nak kawan, when it is obvious sapa yang terus x mo cakap ngan orang bila sentap hahahhaha..
As for takut hilang kawan, u must b kidding man..
When we started being 'kawan' back in 2009,I was subjected to various ridicules from ur previous 'kawan-kawan'. They talked among themselves why they were not called again. Y u dumped them.. hahahha. N once they know it was me, d replacement, u bet, d innuendos kicked off.
As I did in my teenage years, I never into any clique.
Banyak hal lain nak fikir.
Back then, did u ask them jangan tak nak kawan?
I doubt it. Hahahhahaa. Because if u did, I m sure cerita tu dah sampai kat telinga saya bertahun dulu, judging from betapa rajin berceritanya mereka itu.
After years knowing you, I never think maintaining friendships is ur forte.
hahhahaha. No elaboration though.
Yep.. I learnt a lot about you over d years.
I can read ur body language quite well by now.
Let alone ur verbal communication.
But still, u said u know me..
Mungkin, we r two people yang saling berlakon dan yang kita saling kenal, hanyalah watak yang kita lakonkan.
Bukan d real Fern n Max ( bukan nama sebenar).
Mungkin yang terbaiknya begitu.