Tuesday, February 03, 2015

cerita kita.

Hahahahahah..
saya duduk di asrama sejak form one sampailah habis sekolah.
Saya tak taula apa anggapan diorang pada saya, but I think, I never belong to any clique. Dont think I need one.

If my help is needed, I m more than willing to lend a helping hand, when they dont, saya angkat kaki saja la..

If people tried to be clever, hehe ... suffice to say, I am quite well-experienced in managing clever people.

Then come this

Hahahahhahah...
So this is d recount.
Untuk kenang-kenangan di hari tua.

On d first few days, dalam kesentapan, I tried to keep a distance.
Giving space to one another kekdahnya..
As much as I appreciated d whatsapp funny videos messages, I just dunno what to reply. A mere tq, is more than enough.
no more sharing anecdotes whatsoever. Tak perlu!
at least I never forgot to say thanks. Hehe

Tapi, if it was work related, saya still bercakap, menegur seperti biasa.
Whenever I took anything, I will take for my friends too (u r included).
I m still everyone's friend. Always.
No need to remind me, "jangan tak nak kawan pulak". Hahahhaha

Tapi ada orang tu, cepat2 ambil barang2 dia when I sat on d faded pinkish sofa.
"Biarlah.. kita sekejap saya", saya cakap. Dia x jawab. Saya tanya, dia jawab dengan signal.
Angguk. Geleng. Senyum.

Pulak..
bukan saya ke yang patut merajuk?
How could I not? People r talking about my lack of ability behind my back to YOU.
As a friend, I expected you to tell me where I am lacking, so I can improve it.

 N u of all people never think that it is a friend's duty to protect me.
Even we r not blood related, tapi dlm islam, kan lelaki yg kena lindungi pompuan.
ke dah lain sekarang?

Instead, you dropped other name. D culprit.
dont u think saya dah tau dari mula? Dont u think it was loud n clear?
dont u think budak tadika pun tau siapa.

Dont u think that I always prepared for my time to come?
since before things turned sour, he did that to others,
and he told me about it then.
only he was using your name.
Men!

I don't want names,
I just need some assurance that friends will be loyal to me, through thick n thin.
if u said u want to remain friends.
Please be one.
Saya cakap dalam hati. Hahhahha..

Takkan la saya nak mushy tak tentu pasal pulak..
Afterall u r not going to wipe my tears pun.. heh?


Tapi yang sampai tak mo cakap ni hahahhahaha..
Kekanak ribena sungguh...

Ramai yang cenggini.. Dia yang mulakan, pastu sentap sendiri n bawak cerita sana-sini dah tu berharap dipujuk, harap orang merayu mintak mahap ke apa kekdahnya?
masa saya duduk kat asrama bertahun2 tu pun saya x ambik port, ni kan dah tua2 ni...
Hhahahah hilang akal ke hapa?
I have enuff drama in my life,  jadi sejak dulu saya memang tak layan sinetron.


I guess it is d fact that I missed all funny stories shared that make us bonded. Hahhaahaha.
I missed d laugh, d amusing anecdotes n someone to answer all my silly questions.

So, five days later, things kind of back to normal.
hhahahaha..
macam kat asrama bila dah ok, bolehla sembang2 masa prep, tiru homework n g dewan makan sama2. Haha
Diorangla... saya x pernah pilih bulu, homework sapa2 pun saya x kisah tiru haha..

Even, when I re-read dis posting, rasa macam terasa ribena sangat..
but still, since this is d kind of thing we would never discuss in real life,
but still, i want to let it out of my system.

Why d helleberry u said, jangan tak nak kawan, when it is obvious sapa yang terus x mo cakap ngan orang bila sentap hahahhaha..
As for takut hilang kawan, u must b kidding man..

When we started being 'kawan' back in 2009,I was subjected to various ridicules from ur previous 'kawan-kawan'. They talked among themselves why they were not called again. Y u dumped them.. hahahha. N once they know it was me, d replacement, u bet, d innuendos kicked off.


As I did in my teenage years, I never into any clique.
Banyak hal lain nak fikir.

Back then, did u ask them jangan tak nak kawan? 
I doubt it. Hahahhahaa. Because if u did, I m sure cerita tu dah sampai kat telinga saya bertahun dulu, judging from betapa rajin berceritanya mereka itu.

After years knowing you, I never think maintaining friendships is ur forte.
hahhahaha. No elaboration though.

Yep.. I learnt a lot about you over d years.
I can read ur body language quite well by now.
Hahahhaha
Let alone ur verbal communication.

But still, u said u know me..

Mungkin, we r two people yang saling berlakon dan yang kita saling kenal, hanyalah watak yang kita lakonkan.
Bukan d real Fern n Max ( bukan nama sebenar).

Mungkin yang terbaiknya begitu.

Sekian.

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