Thursday, November 12, 2015

Do I know you?

The question keep nagging in my head, dan tak memasal air mata pun turun sekali.

To begin with, it is not a good week. As Ketua Derjahs (pls note d plural form), there r two major events I had to handle. Suddenly, in d spirit of Diwali the festival of lights, one had to change d date on short notice n d other one drama bola2 api pulak.
I managed to keep my composure in both incidents n despite there r few days more before it is over, I am positive it will go well.

Close to home, d Lindungan Kaabah is now doing his dirty tricks. N d sidekicks had been nothing but rude by trying to overshadow everyone in viccinity.
Nayy...  Knowing him, I just focus on my task. You cant teach d old dog new trick, but you can choose not to be like hanjeng itu. So to speak.
The stupidity is so disturbing but I get used to it now

I didnt cry.
I never think it worth to lose my sleep over it

Anyway, this morning I browsed through d material I got for today task.

Incik Usop Sontorian is chosen as d recipient of something n he is in d panel pemilihan.
Previously, he won n he was in d selection panel too

Dulu2 saya ucapkan tahniah n told him how happy I was. Knowing dia x suka bergambar, saya paksa juga, untuk kenangan di hari tua. Gambar itu saya kongsikan untuk tatapan ramai, saya fikir kami berkawan baik.

Oleh kerana both of us bukanlah model Kedai Mesra Petronas, jadi ada banyak yang kita tidak bersetuju, tapi in d end selalu kita pun ambil jalan tengah dan kembali terjalin  ehh.. tu lagu Slam.

Kawan harus jujur n selalu bantu membantu.
So far, memang mudah berurusan dengannya.
Kawan pun mesti harus saling percaya.

Saya fikir dia percayakan saya, jadi saya kirimkan pesanan ringkas how inappropriate for him to accept d anugerah considering pencapaiannya jauh lebih rendah dari sebelumnya.

Tapi jawapannya tak tercapai akalku.
Dia fikir semua orang iri hati padanya.

Tapi saya bukan 'semua orang'.
Dia lupa mungkin, I was d ones who backed him up when outsiders komplen about his remorse attitude.
I was d one who turned and ferried d kids, despite two others boleh biarkan d kids tunggu sampai ke sudah n buat x tau because we were not paid.
Saya pun x kaya, but I dont hv d heart d leave d kids in lurch.

Dia kata dia tau siapa yang timbulkan isu ini
Dia fikir siapa?
Terhina betul bila dia fikir idea tu saya cedok dari orang lain. Bertahun2 saya bina imej sebagai seorang yang opinionated, tetiba pulak dia tak kenal saya.

I support him n d kids wholeheartedly even when others teased me mercilessly. I thought I always remain in d background never once thinking of stealing his limelights.
For years he got all d praise, d acknowledgment n dont forget, d money too. All I got is d tshirts which a bit too tight. Haha
My main concerned were d kids. Personal glory never appeal to me
Knowing his attitude, I always consult him before I made any decision involving em'

In a way we discussed a lot
We shared a lot too...

How stupid I was to think he wud value my opinion.

Begitulah..
Despite all d problems I have to endure this week, yang ini betul2 saya x menduga dan sangat membuatkan saya menangis lagi..

Mungkin buat kali kedua, lagu ini sesuai kot

Andai ini kesudahannnnnnnnn
Impianku tiaaaada laaaagi..


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