Tuesday, February 09, 2016

Flicker of hope.

To be honest, I dunno what flicker is.
Tapi sebab entry ini pasal orang lain, saya belasah tajuk yang puitis sikit

These two people whom I know r so close
I think they r close enough, d percentage of closeness tu, juz none of my business

Seperti yang diceritakan.
Satu hari mereka berbincang berdua. Bincang apa, none of my business also.
Kepala saya dah cukup semak dengan masalah Mukriz Badshah (read: pencacai fefeling semak), x cukup space saya nak masukkan hal yang remeh temeh.

"lainlah kita berdua, kalau berdua pun takkan ada perasaan apa2", dia cerita, dia kata kepada dat particular person.

Nothing wrong with that statement. I used to feel dat all d time with anyone who is younger than me, fatter, shorter and for many unknown reasons too.
Platonic, might b d word.

"How does he take it?", as much as saya tengah sibuk memikirkan tentang donation 2.6 bilion tapi takkanlah saya nak rude buat macam nothing happens.  Harus saya berhospitaliti sikit.

" he looked at other way n turned furious". Dia cakap. Which my friend translated as He hates d topic raised.

Opppss.. Not good
" So I added, you might ask, takkan sikit pun xder? Let me assure you, sikit pun xder (feelings)", dia cerita lagi.

As much as I would like to imagine,  tapi sel2 otak x berhubung dalam bab cenggini. How could you say such a silly thing? Saya tanya dalam hati.

In reminds me years ago, the other friend beritahu I could b easy with anyone except X, sebab dia ada niat lain. Saya kerut kening n buat bodoh.

D truth is I am aware of that, he is not d first one yang noticed. Ada orang dah beritahu awal2 d peculiarities.  I never run away, never give hope n never interested.  Never once I said anything to indicate I know his hidden meaning.
It remained unspoken,  finally bola2 api pun padam sendiri hahaha..

I do not think it is proper to say to someone you have no feelings towards them.
Unless...

" Lupakan sajalah... May be u 2 r meant to be close friends for life", saya cakap sambil main games.

"Meaning?", dia tanya, sambil main games juga.

" D same meaning when u said u have no grain of feelings towards him", saya jawab with twinkle in my eyes.

"oh..  U know?", dia tanya weakly

Oh come on.
Ada benda yang  boleh dilihat jelas tanpa perlu guna mikroskop pun.

What make u think I dunno



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