Saturday, December 31, 2016

First Meeting: misi sebilik:)

First time kot saya tak peduli what post I will hv next year. After finished d Ketua Derjah post recently,  throw anything, I m in!!!

My confidence level raised up after being national bench-marking katanya hahahhahaha
Ok...Serious hambar..

By d way, I still get d post which comes with d parking lot priviledge. Nothing else matter hahhaha.

Sitting next to Yong, we were discussing about trips. She was scheduled for an opt, n she really not up to it so needs distraction. We searched high n low because she wanted somewhere near n cozy. Abroad.

We chose few dates. Both of us had commitments. Yeah rite..

She is good in drawing.

Zeda snapped with our knickknacks thrown in.

Can you read d waiting?
roommates are forever.

Misi tahun ni ialah nak ada meja sendiri dalam bilik boss...

Whatttttt??? Imp0ssible??

People says, miracle does happen
😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂


Friday, December 30, 2016

Gosh... Am I dat nice? (edisi throwback)

Ok I think I am not.
If anything, d Ketua Derjah posts (so far ada 3 je 😂)  taught me to be sensitive with others' religions n beliefs. Normally,  I will start the first day of meeting by asking if anyone is vegetarian.  Then,  followed by a trip to makcik kantin (canteen operator) telling them no beef is allowed during d meeting.

Korang tau tak Buddhist pun tak boleh makan beef?
For me it is simple. If d non-muslim can respect our pork-free diet, sewajarnya kita pun menghormati mereka.

It happened that one day we attended a function. When d food was served, I noticed the lady next to me only took vegetables.

" I m vege today", she said.

Unfortunately,  d vegetables was almost finish.
Jadi I called d waiter, asked her if she could give extra vege because we have a vegetarian on d table.

She was hesitate n said, d food memang takder extra.
" Pleaseeeee try ok", mokcik cakap dan terus makan.
"It is ok lorr", kata orang sebelah tu..

Few minutes later d supervisor came, n promised she would try to find something.
"Please do, I really appreciate your concern", gitu kot mokcik cakap n terus laju makan. Mokcik lapar..

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" Susah je la u ni", orang sebelah cakap lagi. Mokcik was not interested in small talk. Mokcik makan dengan bersungguhnya..

Later d supervisor datang n hantar food.
" Yang ni je yang ada, sebenarnya kita dah sedia satu meja untuk vegetarian.  maaflah " dia cakap.

" Nope. It is more than enough. You r so thoughtful. Thank you sooo much", mokcik pulak yang lebih-lebih., orang sebelah cakap terima kasih je.

" Tau tak, I lapar dari semalam lagi. Thanks to Norizan,  now I dapat makan sedap macam ni" she said to everyone in viccinity.
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Makcik gigit lidah, takut terkeluar kata-kata yang menyinggung hati. I mean..,  since they came a day earlier, takder ke siapa2-siapa yang tanya pasal food.


" Thank you", tak tau berapa kali she thanked me. Tak tau juga berapa kali dia dia cakap that was d nicest food she had in 2 days.

Somehow, mokcik pun rasa terharu la jugak.. Hikssss..


Korang dah makan?

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Ko boleh ke ambik orang ni?

" Boleh dik.. Ko tunggu situ, andak datang", saya jawab dengan konfiden. Terus melompat ke bilik air dan seterusnya mencari kunci rumah.

It was 3.15a.m
Saya takut sebenarnya.
Tapi bertahun dulu, pukul berapa pun saya minta Acho hantar ke mana2 dia akan hantar.
Pukul berapa pun saya suruh Acho ambil saya, dia akan datang fetch.

Highway gelap tapi tidak sunyi, jadi saya memandu 130kmj saja.
30 minit kemudian saya sampai ke Tapah.

Arif berdiri di tengah jalan. Beg diletakkan di sebuah kedai runcit yang buka 24/7.

" teket bas tu ada pukul 11 malam je dari Temerloh... ", dia kata..
Saya ok je..
"tadi bas tu masuk tg malim,  tapi org ingat dia ikut jalan lama pergi Slim. Tak pulak...",
Arif sambung.

Saya relaks je. Sebab dulu saya pun pernah jadi macam tu.  Malam raya pulak tu. Acho tak marah pun. Relaks je dia.
Asal selamat sudahlah..

Jadi kami berdua balik ke #12A sambil Arif bercerita tentang percutiannya.
ThIs is his first time naik bas ekspres sensorang.
Gila eksaited dia.

It dawned to me,  dah bertahun saya tak naik bas ekspress dan enjoy d sleeping-non-stop trip.

Maybe someday.

We arrived at 5a.m n d first thing I did was calling my mom.
I learnt this from Acho too...

Macam mana pun ceritanya,  janji selamat je...

Friday, December 23, 2016

Mokcik (in)femess

Semalam mokcik kasi speech.
To sum up EVERYTHING.
"We r the National-bench-marking now" I told them. I hope they know, what I had to endure.
"Just so you now", I added..
"Tapi yang rahsia kekal rahsia ye" I reminded them. Afterall we have sworn in secrecy.

We parted amicably though.
D ones who create d mess came with another .. ehem...
Kak Mizan was almost in tears.


"Akak tolong jangan jinak sangat", I told her off...
Sebab yang kena teruk ialah Mizan dan Izan. Yes. d two of us.
She was almost in tears again. She just could not understand why should I be so full of bad thoughts. Maybe?

I gave her facts of course. A long recount.
D event which I thought was normal in d beginning now it became hints which I always overlook.
"Jangan jinak sangat kak.." hahahhahah

I got d message somewhere after Maghrib, yeah my batt conked out whole day, asking me to call d Headquarters.  Dah malam...
I wished..

In the morning I went ballistic when one of the important documents went missing.
I searched high and low.. To no avail.
I called Kak Mizan who was up north, spending her long overdue holiday.
"Ask her kak" saya cakap. Takder air mata. Menangis air mata darah pun memang inapt expression. Saya fikir my hunch was right.

"Dia kata dia ada nampak semalam" came kak Mizan's reply, minutes later.
Saya nampak balai polis saja pagi ni. Kalau tak jumpa saya mesti report..
Sh@t.. saya mencarut juga sudahnya.

The meeting was scheduled at 8.30a.m.
I was late.
"We have problem. Big ones" saya cakap. Kak Ina started kereta calmly. n started plan what we will say to d policeman. 

Tapi we went to d suspected place dulu...It was wide open. There will b a meeting in few more minutes, we seek permission to enter.

First I checked d place I Normally sit.
Yillek.
Then saya pergi ke tempat beliau.

Denkkkk... it was hidden in  a drawer.
" I told u so!!!", saya jerit pada Kak Ina.

" Apa bendanya?" orang dalam bilik tu tanya,  saya geleng kepala, dia bagi nasihat lain kali periksa betul sebelum keluar.

Perlu ke saya beritahu sebelum wrap up, dan selepas semua orang wrapped up I checked d room supaya secebis kertas pun tak tinggal.  Tali seinci pun saya kutip. Saya tawaf dua tiga kali sebab kerja yang saya buat ini betul2 perlukan kerahsiaan yang tinggi.

Saya pun tak sudi masuk balai juga.

"Why she did this to me kak?" saya tanya banyak kali.
"Why she took d document from me in d first place Kak?", saya tanya lagi.
"She is not supposed to take it Kak. If she wanted to see it why can't she ask", saya tanya.  Rasa nak nangis.
"Say she took it Kak, why she hid it Kak?" banyaknya soalan.
" Why can't she come clean Kak", saya masih gigih bertanya.


Kak Ina tak ada jawapan.
Kak Mizan pun Tak ada jawpan.


Sampai hati...
"I tak sangka la you are TOO NICE" Ms J who happen to see me said once she learnt our whereabouts.

too nice a.k.a jinak.
Kerana kejinakkan itu,  now mokcik is femessss kata ko.

Tissue pls😭

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

Why r u like that

From d beginning we r told not to step on one another toe.
Therefore, we always remained tactful.

I just couldn't fathom why she never listens.
When she suggested the idea yesterday, I told her off.

NOPE.
I said.

And today, seeing d final list, I just knew it.
Not one but seven.

I never ask for reasons. Tak perlu kot..
If she is adamant to have it her way, I wish her luck.

There is a life after this season is over.
Maybe our path will be crossed in the future.
So be it.

Retaliate, revenge is so yesterday.
I am afraid the best I could do is avoiding her like plague.

Or else I will be constantly going to nail spa for the rest of my season life.

Cheers!!

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Menangislah semahumu😭

"Sibuk tak", he asked..
" Taklah... Dalam bilik air je...", saya cakap. Ada hint.

"I nak cakap juga...", he said.
"Ok... No prob.", saya cakap. Berlagak cool. Saya tutup pili air.

It must b very important. Saya tak pernah call dia kalau tak penting. I m sure dia pun macam tu. In fact saya tak call sesiapa in my team semata2 nak tanya dah makan ke belum. Very not me.

It was very important.
Guidance.
Saya suruh dia tidur awal n bertenang..

"Tak boleh....", dia cakap.
Saya kata it is not his fault.
"It is my fault..  I shouldnt yadayada..",  panjanglah dia cakap.  Saya dengar sambil tersengih.

Saya fikir masih ada sinar di situ...
"These r what I think u shud do..." saya kasi idea.
"Tak boleh...", dia cakap.
 Bila perbualan terhenti,  saya termenung panjang.  Tapi....
Belasah je la...

ThIs morning he texted me again.
Dia ikut yang saya suggested semalam. By noon dia jenguk muka.

"Ok x?" saya tanya..
"Ok sangat2. Rasa boleh ni", dia cakap.

At 4.45p.m he was all smiles.
"Settled!" dia katanya.
Mokcik tersengih sampai ke telinga.

"I x perrrnahh menangis, tapi semalam tu memang I menangis",  dia cerita..

Saya geleng kepala, sambil buat muka disbelieved.
"U shouldnt...",  saya cakap Macamlah seumur hidup, saya tak pernah ada masalah..

" I stressed sangat... ", dia kata..
Hati tisu sangat mamat ni.
I kept my poker face.

So that dia konfiden dgn leadership mokcik.
So that he felt safe n secured under my wing.

Harap2 dia takkan tau, mokcik pun menangis kat bucu katil juga dan berdoa Allah mudahkan urusan makcik di dunia dan akhirat serta jauhkan mokcik dari bala bencana serta azab dunia.
Sesungguhnya makcik sangat rasa tertekan dengan amanah Ketua Derjah yang sedang mokcik pikul ini.

Feeza kata, nanti bila dah habis, akan rasa manisnya pengalaman.
Being one of the 135 people around d nation who hold d post? Is that?
Mungkin manis, dalam saringan. Mungkin.

Tuesday, December 13, 2016

Sisters r forever

Initially I planned to go to Big Bad Wolf sale after PWTC event. Tapi duit saya dah habis sebab servis kereta which amounted to Rm9++. Gila betul.

"Bagus. Jimat sikit", said Baby when I told her I could not go.
"Yeah. Gr8!!", saya balas dan terus tidur.

The next day she asked if I could come over, kalaupun x shopping,  katanya.

90% hati saya memang nak balik cepat sebab byk sangat kerja tak siap.
10% gagah juga pergi sebab tak sampai hati.

When I arrived,  she was not at home. So I waited for 3 hours at McD.  Doodling, Thats it.


She had night class.

Once she came back, we had a talk until 1 a.m. So much thing to catch up. She fell asleep,  but I stayed up until 3 a.m.
Yes. Mokcik kerja macam hanjjjj chuolss.

She woke me up at 7 a.m and an hour later baru lah saya betul2 fit to leave the pillow.
Welcome to my life peeps:)

The problem is, I did not bring extra baju. I borrowed hers though. The brown Esprit pants fit me well. Syukurlah beliau pernah gemuk, jadi adalah saiz yang nak dipinjam.
We went to the BBW.. Yippee!



She loaned me some money, Double Yippee.
She treated me for breakfast - nasi lemak n curry puff, mineral water n Hot Coffee -RM15++.
Nak jmat, kitaorang kongsi je makan.
Mahal kot...

Then we spent a considerable time perusing d books.
In d end our Bill was RM4++.
Duh. Well spent ok.

On d way home, we stopped at  KLIUC for Nasi Arab. Well.. looked like d shop closed though.  Chose a stall, Malaysia kot, food are everywhere
I had lady fingers, plain rice. She had vege and we shared kembung grilled n both had lime juice. Baru RM16 je.. Jimat.

We went home n err... Watched tele n read books n talk. We could talk for days, u know.

She made tom yum n Hot Coffee for dinner. Yummy, then we talked summore before dozed off.

I woke up early. 5 a.m to be exact.
In between doing my task,  I googled for warehouse. Was thinking of going to Hush Puppies Warehouse Sale but Baby said, not worth it.

" Wa ada banyak kasut tak pakai lagi kot", she said.
Great!. Akhirnya saya dapat sepasang pink running shoes n green Nike trail shoes.
Jimat.

Sebab mood shopping masih membara, we went to Mitsui Outlet. It reminds me of d shopping complex near d Charles De Gaulle Airport in Paris. So near the airport and so remote. 

We ended up buying mint green SKORT and tracksuit at Cotton On. There is d Muslimah store which sells beautiful blouses, pants n skirt.
We bought 5 pieces, very affordable.
Actually buy 4 free 1,  tu yang gigih beli beria tu

Baby treated Iced Mocha n Tuxedo cake at Starbucks.  
D cake not as fresh as d ones in Slim River . Too bad, but d mocha is superb, as usual.
It was raining when we left d Outlet.

Then, I got a message, asking for a certain analyses.
Yeah right...
I don't even arrange d said task neatly.

"Nak baliklah", I told Baby.
"Weii.. Esok cuti kot", she said...

Yeah I know...
How I wished I could spend my year-end holiday the way I like to..

Berguling depan tv with my sisters.
I wished...

Sunday, December 11, 2016

Doodling my stress away.

I was waiting for  Baby.
Luckily I hv this..



Erm..

Friday, December 09, 2016

I wish I m not working 24/7

Plan asal we will sleep over in KL.
Its always fun going out together. I was in-charge of booking d hotel. I like.
What I hate most is, I could not join them..

Such a pity.
I drove from Slim RiVer at 6 a.m and reached Jalan Duta an hour later. It was raining.
Duh. trafic was slow.

Able to park at d record time, 8.15 in d morning.
It was quite early. d KLlite were d only contingent there..

Goshhh..
What a time wasted.
I found and empty room and started doing my task.

I know.
Very not fun.

But what to do?

When d Tuanku came in, there.. a phone call telling me, 
D three parcels arrived, please pick it up pronto..

I have 2 choice.
Ignore or Run.

I choose neither.
Glad I did.

Really had splendid time though.

Thursday, December 08, 2016

Close shave

Tadi tu I was trying to log into a certain website. Berjam saya cuba. Futile attempted.

Then someone approached me n initiated a small talk. There r so many things we hv in common, jadi panjanglah juga perbualan kami.

He took out a printed material.
I took out a pencil and gedik nak mengedit...

"tak payah....saya dah edited kat komputer",  dia kata.
"Kita bayar mahal belajar editing", saya memang annoying orangnya.

I kept on reading.
He did brilliant, so pensel saya tu tak berguna sangat pun.

I skimmed d documents n stopped kat satu perkara.

"Jangan letak nama kita kat sini. Dulu memang kita yang in-charge then mereka pergi jumpa boss n said they dont want to work with me. If you Puť my name, nanti it will b hard for YOU to do your job", saya cakap sambil gariskan nama saya.

Me n my poker face.
He didn't ask.
I didn't offer explanation either.
Tak perlu.

I hope he knows how serious d matter is, despite saya cakap dengan muka inesen.
I don't mind to work hard.
I don't mind if People take credit.
Tapi another degrading n humiliated year, duduk sebelah tak nak bercakap, surat panggilan tak nak kasi, plan tak nak sharing, jumpa tarik muka with them sangatlah scary to d core katanya.

It dawned to me though.
Sebenarnya saya betul2 dah tak kuat menghadapi drama TheOtherFriend dan rakan2nya.

Semoga Allah jauhkan saya daripada bala bencana dan janganlah terbalikkan hati saya pula.
Buat kesekian kalinya saya berdoa, janganlah saya menganiaya sesiapa sepanjang kerjaya saya.
D betrayal cuts deep n will never heal.

Hasil carian imej untuk you hurt me and i never fore
Sekian.




Ubat biru

My mom called this morning, kasi tahu ubat dia habis. After completed my task,  I went to d pharmacy...  Alang-alang beli ubat, I bought d blue and red heart-shaped pills container too.

Gigih saya gunting pill tu n placed ikut hari dalam dat small container.
Saya balik umah n kasi to my mom. Then I went out,  to pick d parcel.
Oh right.. I am working 24/7 these days> Pfttt

3 hours later I came home.
Mak kata dia dah lama tak.makan ubat yang saya beli tu. (read: salah beli ubat)
Dia cuma makan ubat biru sahaja tu adehhhh..

Saya janji nak beli esok sebab farmasi mesti dah tutup. It was already 6 p.m.
Mak saya ok je. sangat tabah dia menerima kelembapa anaknya ini.

So.I.went back n otw saya nampak farmasi tu still open.
I bought d blue pills n sent it home. The distance is some 30km away...
Hasil carian imej untuk love is mom

"Yang inilah yang mak nak!!!", mak saya cakap dengan gembira.
Saya pun gembira juga.

" Tapi ubat yang silap beli ni nak kasi siapa pulak?", saya tanya.
Mak saya diam.
Saya pun..

Moral: lainkali sebelum beli.boleh tak tanya dulu?

Tuesday, December 06, 2016

Hari ini ada guest

Part of d parcel of being Ketua Derjah.
I asked her to come over because there is a teeny-weeny glitch.

She came dengan hati yang seteresss...  I've been in her shoes before, so I tried to make her as comfortable as I could.
She said she can't focus on anything else sebab dia begitu tertekan.


The good thing,  she accepts d comments with an open-heart and willing to make adjustment.  Tabah!

By 12 noon we went out for lunch. Beras kat umah makcik dah habis. Besides, I had severe stomach-ache today. Tapi given d circumstances, kau sakit tergolek pun, kerja kena siap on time katanya...

I had Spicy tempe and steamed kembung (mackerel). She had curry chicken n some vege. I chose Apple Juice n she opted for warm barley. We ate quickly n balik to #12A sambung kerja.
No time for coffee shop.

I took a nap but she continued her task n woke me up when she finished.
We bid good bye n I continued my sleep.

Then I checked her final task which she left in a brown envelope.
It is brilliant. On d right track. Yippeeeeee..

Jadi malam ni mokcik boleh tidur dgn senang hati :)





Monday, December 05, 2016

Dilema Lelaki Itu part 2

Years ago, seseorang sebut tentang abang kawannya yang softie.
Saya kenal kawan abangnya but HE IS DEFINITELY NOT SOFTIE!

He is happily married n blessed with few school-going Kids.

Me: u might b wrong.  Abang yg lain kot.
So: My friend only have one Brother!!

Saya kenal baik abang tu. Tak mungkin.
Years after our conversation, then satu hari saya xder kerjaya.

I took something to him n minta dia selesaikan sebab saya buat huduh sangat.
"Ok la tu", abang tu cakap,  no trace of softie whatsoever.

"Tapi...", mokcik terus buat skrip Damsel in Distress. He laughed n helped me out...
Make short,  dat was d only time, I could see him without his mask.

He always have my respect.  I never told anyone about his past, because I know, if only he knows my darkest secRet ( well, so far Xder pun) I m sure he will keep it to his grave, jadi sewajarnya saya pun simpan rahsia dia juga.

Besides,  he tried all his might to choose d right path, kita sokong sajalah...
I m not perfect either.

N so do u,  peeps



Dilema Lelaki Itu part 1

Pernah tak korang jumpa orang yang u swear u had never met but treated u warmly, bergelak ketawa macam dah kenal lama n ko belum buat lawak dia dah ketawa.

I met a guy, few months ago, during one of d many Charity works.
 Korang tak tau yang mana satu, jadi jangan teka.

He did not treat my colleague as warmly either.  Tu yg buat my curiosity grew higher tu. D csi in me pun started working overtime,  katanya...

Saya fikir lelaki itu kenal saya melalui kawan-kawannya. Mungkin kawan2nya trust me,  jadi dia pun jinak juga Hahhahha..

Persamaan beliau dan kawan2nya sangat ketara walau pada awal berjumpa dia sedaya upaya menyorokkan. Saya kagum dengan lelaki yang bersungguh menyorok kecelaruan gender mereka.
At least they tried to be er... normal.

I dont judge.
Jadi saya menerima mereka seadanya. Cuma yang haram tetap haram ye,  if u know wat I mean hahhahahha..

Pada hemat saya, mereka ada solidarity yang kuat. Hahhaha.. They know one another,  kalau korang rajin check their soc-med friendlists korang akan jumpa orang yang sama, tidak,  saya tak perlu csi sampai ke situ...
 Saya cuma sebut sepatah dua kata je, dan terus mereka sambut dengan tangan selebar padang bola. Itu figuratively speaking ye.

Kata apa, itu rahsia la kot... Hanya saya dan lelaki-lelaki itu saja yang tahu.

Jauh di sudut hati, saya simpati dengan mereka. Bersimpati bukan bermaksud bersetuju 100% ye.

Hari ini saya menghubungi seorang daripada mereka. Ada urusan yang perlu, jika tidak xderla saya beria sangat pun...

Dia sedang ikut rombongan  majlis perkahwinan anak saudaranya.

Me: gigihnya!
Him: Xder maknanya...
me: but u go..  Like Wow!
Him: bapak budak tu meninggal. I m d headman. I sajalah jantanzz yg ada.

Now...  Dont get me wrong.
When I first met him, he was all manly hahaha...  with husky voice lagi tu..
He could b man enough when he chose to.

But now,  I know him well, jadi agak sukar saya nak digest beliau jadi Ketua rombongan pengantin.
I could imagine, when ppl know he is still single n available, berjemaahlah orang nak kenenkan.. Hahaha.
Might be lelaki itu akan tersenyum payau n ketawa kelat.

Life is not dat simple.
When were small,  ada dua jantina saja.
Lelaki @ perempuan.
Man@women
Male@Female

" u cant b Half", saya ingat lecturer saya pernah cakap dalam kelas dulu.
"I mean u cant b half-pregnant rite?", he asked us during one of our nite class. We laughed. I have never have a half-half friend back then.

Now I did.
I am still half-confused, half-amused and half-refused to accept d reality.

Too bad half of them is really a husband material, should they choose to be one.

Abaikan.


Sunday, December 04, 2016

My first marathon..I survived

"What???? Fun Run je kan?" Baby kata...
I just don't give a damn. I was the longest distance I've ever had..
Marathon on my standard.


I contacted Ziela, my x-classmates in September.
"Give me 2 months to clear my schedule" mokcik cakap sebab towards end of year babysitter macam mokcik memang not win hand nak penuhi show yang melambak2 tu..
If u can read d sarcasm, then you r brilliant, if not, u better shut your mouth up, mokcik dah cukup seteresss jangan kau tambah bara yang tersimpan kata Acik Lina Pom Pom.

I managed to block my dates and all, tapi tetiba mokcik was appointed as Ketua Derjah  pula. Celah mana nak training  since d task had taken up all my year end holiday?

Nampak tak itu cuma alasan.
Kalau makcik training siang malam pun, belum tentu lagi mokcik boleh buat yang terbaik..

Jadi yang terbaik, kita belasah je..

Luckily my friends menerima kekurangan mokcik dengan hati yang tabah.
I had a lot of fun.

Judging from d pics, they too..
There's so much things I want to write, but I have to hurry for another pending task.









\oouchhh..
Jad saya letak pics..
Kenangan di hari tua...