Saya selalu tulis, one of my saddest periods in life was circa 2009/2010. I was so broke, I don't even have baju raya. Nak makan pun sangat berkira, ended up saya beli nasi, kuah and telur saja...the only time saya makan yang berkhasiat was when I went back to #18 n when Zana's mom came n brought food.
There was one time, we ( anak-anak sedara were with me at dat time) saw our neighbour g hantar tupperware kat umah jiran sebelah n Aisya n I were kind of wishing dia hantar rumah kitaorang...
Cehh kecewa betul masa tu..
I lost 5 kg okeh..
Saya fikir saya takkan lupa selagi masih bernyawa. But I was wrong.
Today, I went to night market. I stopped at cakes stall. D fruit tart looked so tempting. So I bought a set of 6 pieces mixed tart.
"Boleh makan terus yang ini tak?", saya tanya, orang tu handed it to me..
D glazed strawberry n lychee were so juicy. D custard was moist n d shell just so crusty..
I savoured d yummy fruit tart lovingly giteww...
Once paid, I took d plastic bag n I noticed, mokcik ada penonton rupanya. A little girl, not more than 8 stared at me.
Well, not really at me, sebab bila saya dah jalan tu, Her eyes still fixed on the stall, the cakes to be exact.l.
I overheard d mom said, " hari ini tak payahlah beli, lain kali ye".,
The little girl kept staring at d array of scrumptious pastries.
I used to do dat too. Stood in front of bakery, drooled n then went home empty- handed. I could not afford waima croissant harga Rm2 satu pun.
Jadi saya faham sangat how does it feel when we want something badly but could not afford it.
Jadi saya patah balik dan kasi bungkusan yang saya beli tu kepada dat little girl. She did not take it, so I gave to d mother.
Scared of streangers maybe.
"manis kot..." mokcik cakap gaya mokcik2 la kann. The Lady took it n thanked me.
Cepat2 saya berlalu pergi dan tak toleh dah.
I think d little girl needed d tart more than I did.
Harap-harap saya kurus lima kilogram 😭