Sunday, August 13, 2017

Kenangan lebih indah daripada peristiwa:)

After years of lapse, dis yr d committee is formed n d activity is organised. Gigih mokcik took part to show my support since, Mr Shahrul had support all my programmes wholeheartedly. Giler kau tak balas budi orang...

Initially, to cut cost, mokcik suruh d neighbouring school took part. Dah derang tak sudi, mokcik pejam mata n paksa d Girls joined. I did not blame them though. In fact I did not force anyone. Free will.

The Girls pun x sudi juga in d beginning, cuma lepas camping trip terus mereka berubah 360Derjah.  At least berjaya juga camping tu shaped them to be helpful.

I learnt from experience. Certain people bila kita ajak buat kerja, dia bingit nak mampsss petik sana sini, cari gaduh dengan orang tu n orang ni, bingit lagi kenapa orang tu tak tolong, orang ni tak bantu.  Avoid them like plaque.

Mokcik dah bijak sket, so awal2 mokcik tanya jumpa Chiefs. Ketua Derjah to Ketua Derjah talk kata ko, sambil minum ayo nescafe panas.   Hahaha... Yuni n Lida (both r Chiefs)  agreed to help out.

In d evening when d Girls mengadu mereka kena marah sebab join, mokcik tersenyum sinis jah. I don hv time for ular/snakes.  Instead I asked d Girls to settle it. As I always remind myself, it is not my level to stoop so low katanya...

Funny, 2 people came n shared their expertise.  I smiled gratefully but it was just that. The least I want to do is melayan drama. They had given me headaches in d past, their nasty comments will forever etched in my mind.
Daya ingatan mokcik masih bagus.
Thanks, but no thanks.

Someone suggested I asked someone for help. I did not. In d past I always told her about things, because she is d Chief back then. Every time, she will tell me to tell others too, not just her, implying my leadership is that bad until I couldnt deliver to others, except her. Like?

I IS KENFIUSED.

I thought it is what organisation is all about. Chiefs talked to Chiefs who later will instruct ur subordinates. Or else,  no need to form committee whatsoever.
Kita suruh saja siapa yang lalu depan mata buat kerja gitu?

Not me.
Mokcik x minat nak masuk campur, despite I like her so much. I found d attitude is annoying. Omputeh kata too many cook spoil d broth.
No thanks.

I contacted a Facebook friend for his expertise. He came.
When I stumbled n demotivated, I went to Ikea Preview Sale. Hahaha...

I called my trusted friends for support. They came to my rescue, for dat I m so thankful.

I laughed a lot with everyone,  deep down I just know, if I fall they will laugh-out-loud too. Hahaha...

I laughed again when someone said " awat teruk sangat" because I forgot to take d markers. If he was A FRIEND, he will text me n remind me because he knows how forgetful I m. D fact he chose to team up n bashed me behind my back is an acid test for his true colours.
What else to do?
Ketawa sajalah.

I do know someone is so bitter n keep mengadu sana sini about my decision.
I do know too those yang dia pergi mengadu gigih taking sides, while been nothing but sweet to me. Fake!!

Suddenly, tak pernah2,  skip assembly nak pujuk 'skandal' yang sedang bersedih. (sumpah tak ngaku tu)  hahahaha...

Do I look like I care?

Nope.
I dont.

Hidup ni singkat sangat kot, nak bermuka2 dan main wayang segala.
Nak acah2 alim dan quote ayat Quran to justify our actions.

It wasnt easy. I puƄ a brave face in front of everyone. Balik rumah mokcik menangis di bucu katil.

I never wished it to anyone. It hurts.
Damn hurts.
The worst kind of hurt, I tell u.

I had a gud time working with d Girls n d frens who love giving them chance n exposure. My mom accompanied too.
Knowing these people still with me, through thick n thin is enuff.
But still, there were times I was so scared n confused, I wept to sleep.

The Girls didnt win though.
Nayy... It is least of my concern. They had work hard, dats matter...

On our way back, d girls kata mereka nak makan KFC.
Ermmm.. Pakcik driver said he dont mind to stop for a while.

I noticed four Girls did not go down.
I asked them why. Two r well-off. Sengaja tak nak makan oily food maybe.

One 'mouthed' she only brings RM5.
The other just shrugged off, meaning she did not bring any.

I slipped a ten-ringgit bill to one. She refused.

I m sure,  all teachers will do the way I did. Takkanlah kira nak biarkan..

"Tapi Nina dah tolong Teacher... Teacher sangat terharu tau tak...", which is true. Kalau si Nina ni pun ikut perangai macam  di perenggan 5,6, 13, 14 dan 15, Perghhhhhhhhhhhh konfem mokcik kemurungan eternally.

But nope.
I did not tell her about people in para 5,6,13 14 n 15. For them Teacher mereka is an Angel, all smiles and always see d bright side of everything which has nothing to do.with homework. The Teacher is a lioness where incomplete homework is concerned giteww.

Saya beli 4 sets for Yuni, Fiqah, pakcik driver n d girl yang tak bawak duit tu.

They thanked me profusely.

One of them asked me, how much I spent for d Girls. Tak banyak pun, saya cakap. Which is true. Tak habis pun sebulan gaji.

Her: Duit claim cuma dpt RM360 tapi sewa bas RM400, lagi RM40 dapat dari mana?
Me; Kan cukup tu?
Her: Ye la... Duit beli goodies ni ambik dari mana?
Me: Kan awak dah bagi duit tu semalam..
Her; Ye la tapi mana cukup...
Me: Cukup tu..
Her: Duit upah jurulatih, sewa topi,  duit minyak lagi.

Saya pun...  Entah...
Diam. Makan


Dia selitkan duit dalam poket. Saya tepis, dia elak.

"Saya nak pahala jugak,  jangan tolak", dia kata. Saya diam dan terus makan KFC, padahal tak lapar pun.

To be honest, saya sampai sudah tak boleh hadam apsal orang suka mengata2 dan caci maki di belakang. If fame is what d trainers like us got, sorry we could never win. At least my team do not stand a chance.

If it is for name, I would rather do like them, dah sah2 will be liked sebab tak menyusahkan orang ajak buat itu ini.

If it is for money, think again...

Yang derang bingit sangat tu dah kenapa kot? Satu sen pun mereka tak menyumbang,  mohtip sangat. Takat tetiba nak mengadu sana sini, yang dengar pun gigih taking sides n jadi cnn. Gi jumpa boss ngadu lagi, boss pun  terima aduan dengan hati terbuka n it reflected in yearly appraisal

Fuhhh... Tinggi betul konfidensi memasing.

I never retaliate in d past, I will definitely not going to start now. They can do whatever they want. Mokcik tak sudi nak campur.

Once home I took out out d bill she slipped.
Goshhhhhh..

I cried.
At least now I know I m not alone.









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